My blog....

2007-10-01T19:45:00.000+08:00

Its all over!!!!!!!!!!!! Promos are a thing of the past =) haha..... quite relieved........ think i did reasomably well bah.... hmm.... but i guess it wasnt the best la.... hmm....... o well...... its over and done with =)

Hmm...... this afternoon was the best afternoon for me in weeks =) =) haha....... shant blog abt it here xP.....

2007-09-20T19:43:00.000+08:00

Hmm..... why is technology so undependable nowadays.... why do hps spoil so easily =(...... really really miss receiving her smses...... hmmm.... feels so weird and empty without her smses...... haha.... really really really miss her............. cant stop thinking abt her even though promos are only 4 days away......

Sigh.... i wonder.......... 13 more days =)

2007-09-16T09:43:00.000+08:00

hmmm..... realised i forgot to thank br in my last post =S..... haha... thx br for being there to talk to me xP..... o ya, and sorry melvin for not talking to u on the bus....... cause wasnt really in the mood at that time =S....

Hmm.... i realised its only when u fall, then u truly realise who your true frens are.... its only when you need someone to turn to, someone to just listen to you, that you'll realise who your true frens are =) and im glad at least, i know i have a few true frens =)

On a more important note, 8 more days to promos!!!! =S..... PANICK!!!!!!!!! MUG!!!!!!!!

2007-09-15T23:59:00.000+08:00

hmmm..... maf today......... really really glad...... perhaps, in the midst of all my revision plus all the other stuff that cropped up, i lost sight of my goal..... but helping out in maf reminded me of whats important.... of whats really important.....

Abt not getting sm, i've accepted the fact and gotten over it =) thx william and zk for ur tags and esp. yh for your sms...... hmmm..... but i only truly realised this during the song session today.... hmmm.... i realised what matters most is not whether i get sm... cause i wanted the sm position in the first place not because i want it for my portfolio or anything, but because i want to do more, to contribute more to huangcheng... but since i cant be sm, i'll just join daoju..... i can still contribute to huangcheng in my own little way, though i may not be a sm......

hmm..... and abt her =)... Was really confused today morning..... i really really dunno where i stand...... but now, i realised that it doesnt matter.... cause no matter what happens, i'll still love her forever =) cause shes everything to me =)...... haha.... perhaps i dun understand love, perhaps i am just a idiot, but it doesnt matter, cause she's the only thing that matters to me =)

As for promos, im re-motivated xP....... haha..... i realised that i've been getting slackier and slackier, but now, i promise to buck up.... i'll finish all my notes by monday, finish chem revision paper and another maths paper by tuesday, get physics tys from wenjun and finish at least 1/2 of the topics by thurs, finish chem booklets by friday and spend sunday revising econs. sat shall be my buffer day =)...... Hope i can achieve this =)

Hmm....... now onto the actual maf.... haha... omg, its super high lol.... haha, was man-ing the stall where ppl had to blow out candles from a distance... then the furthest candle was like super far and almost impossible to blow out lol..... haha.... was super fun cheering for the ppl, getting more ppl to play, and niao-ing those ppl who cant blow out the candles.... shouted till my entire voice hoarse diao.... haha.... its like super super funny lol.... then got a lot of random stuff happening..... hmmm...... lol..... then went to mass song session =) huangcheng circle!!!! xP..... yay!!!!! super super high la....... sing until out of breath and no voice liao...... i think we were like the noisest group during song session lol..... then after that was dance session..... hmm..... super random la.... forgot most of the mass dances... then the cameraman nvr show the dance i/c somemore... a bit can dance..... then i was dancing 'i got my eyes set on you' with mr lan ying jie -.-".......... and halfway, i snatched zhenghang from guanjie i think and threw yingjie to him xP........ haha.... cause yingjie was -.-"........ hmm...... quite fun la... really really enjoyed myself..... then during debrief we sang 唱一首华初的歌again.... hmm... really really high then..... haha.... tired, but super high........... then after that played with sparkers on the rooftop.... hmm.... havent played with sparkers for a very long time.... a pleasant memory....... hmmm........ really really glad that maf happened.....

2007-09-14T20:21:00.000+08:00

didnt get sm.......... hmmm........ all i can feel now is disappointment...... but perhaps, im alrdy numbed to the feeling....... nvm, it all doesnt matter now..... 10 days left to promos..... just forget everything else and mug.....

When there was you and me
High School Musical

It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
That's coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
And once upon a song

Now I know you're not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I can tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Cause I liked the view
When there was me and you

I can't believe that
I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind
Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you

2007-09-09T21:31:00.000+08:00

omg..... just watched finished bruce almight on tv..... haha... at the start sort of regreted watching it, but the ending was super super touching lor..... its like God asked bruce if he wanted his girlfren back, then bruce replied:no.... I want her to be happy... even if that means she wont be with me.... i want her to be with a guy who truly loves her the way she loves him... I want her to be happy forever... for her to be with a guy that truly treasures her...

omg... i cant believe he said that lor.... i mean, thats the rarest breed of guy there is lor....... aiya, i know its a movie lar.... but if it was real life and i was the gf, i'll be super touched lor... haha..... Super super touching la..... but i guess this sort of guy is like 1 in a 100 la..... haha.....

2007-09-04T20:18:00.000+08:00

Hmmm........ after all the philosophy posts.... haha... maybe i shld post something substantial......

hmmm........ once upon a time, there was a runner, a marathon runner....... he wasn't very good and quite lazy, but still he performed quite well in the numerous marathons he took part in..... often, he would start slowly and blaze at the end...... hmmm......... but one day, this marathon runner tripped and injured his leg..... the wound was terrible, to say the least.... but then, there was this nationwide super important marathon coming up...... so the runner made a decision, the only decision he could make......... he bounded up his wound and ran on........ this time, it was a 21 hours marathon....... in the first hour, he managed to ignore the pain.... to just push on at a extremely fast pace, leaving many other competitors eating his dust..... but halfway through the second hour, he stumbled over a rock, and his wound split open again.... the pain burnt through his leg....... but he bit his lip and struggled on...... yet, he slowed down, was it weariness from the first hour of chionging? or was it the wound? We would never know....... but out the blue, another runner caught up with him.... but this runner was enticed by the scenery.... the beauty of it all.... and thus, he accidentally kicked the wound of the injured runner...... The wound hurt..... it really really hurt..... but still, the runner continued on, limping, instead of running....... but the pain was too much.... too unbearable...... and thus, near the end of the two hours, the runner sat down, and attempted to clean his wound and rebound it... getting ready to run again..........

Haha, stay tuned for a blow by blow account of the next 19 hours xP............

hmmmm..... after alighting off 66, I decided to take the long way home......... a much longer way and i walked rather slowly........ but the road was deserted and dark........ quiet..... a quietness that i could identify with....... 4" 33'

2007-09-03T23:19:00.000+08:00

hmmm........... something that i always wanted to blog abt........ morals....... my principles

Hmm.... i realised i;ve been venturing into discusions in this realm for a very long time..... haha..... morally, my standpoint is that one should always be kind and respectful to the other party, no matter what the other party does.... The other party committing a mistake doesnt give u a right to commit the same mistake too......... 你对我不仁，但我不能对你不意.......... haha..... i guess ideally, i would want to treat everyone well........

HOWEVER, before you guys start throwing rotten eggs at me and point out all the stupid stuff that i've done, which i admit i do sometimes, theres a huge divergence between what i would do ideally and what i do.......

hmm.... whenever i discuss concepts or theories to do with philosophy or behaviour, for the sake of discussion, i like to assume that stuff happens ideally........ e.g. emotions dun come into play, we are all perfectly rational beings, etc, etc........ of cos, this doesnt happen..........

The idea of a philosopher king...... by plato is a good one actually........ cause the only assumption it makes is that the philosopher king himself is a self less, all seeing being that acts in the best interest of everyone... of course, its impossible............ but compared to democracy, where the assumption is that there will be fair competition and that everyone will vote for the party that they feel will benefit the society most and that everyone is rational beings..... democracy seems to be even more impossible............... plus, one of the most important cornerstones of democracy, highlighted in the declaration of independence, (I forgot the original phrasing, but it goes something like this) When the government in power begins to forsake the interest of the people for its own benefits in order to stay in power, the people with the power to right this wrong have the responsiblity to do it. In other words, the population has to act as a watchdog for the government, ensuring that the government is acting in everyone's best interests, and if the government grows addicted to power, the people who can overthrow the government and set up a better government, HAVE the responsibility to do it......

But there is no absolute rubrics to judge it.... just like there is no absolute right or wrong.... also, every single government theory assumes that someone, at least, HAS to be a selfless individual that acts in everyone's best interests.... but is that even possible?

hmmmmmmm........ i realised i think over such stuff a lot............. maybe this energy shld be better spent mugging........... sigh..........

2007-08-31T20:23:00.000+08:00

hmmm....... today was teachers day...... haha... HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY TO ALL THE TEACHERS OUT THERE!!!! xP anyway, the celebrations was quite ok la.... but also rather lame.... haha.... then went to watch ratatouille.... haha... for the first time ever, our class outing actually had more girls than guys!!!!! amazing!!!!!!! lol......... but 75% of the girls not from our class lol......... haha.... hmmm......... the movie was extremely interesting and entertaining.... shant post spoilers here so dun worry xP......... haha..... but what really captured my attention today was talking to cao lei and li hui.... haha.... discussing philo was fun.... and refreshing..... a break from the complex physics xP.... lol, not that physics is boring or anything, but an excess of anything, even something as good as physics, is....

(Disclaimer: Read on at your OWN risk)

hmmm..... so i decided to blog abt my standpoint.... haha.... cause i know its gonna change... so next time i can look back and read what my stand is.......

hmm..... Im a compatibilist..... I believe that free will exists... but no choice is completely free... because we are constrainted by circumstances.... but at the same time, we cant completely blame our circumstances for our actions..... hmmm.... so its like we have biased choices, but we have choices nonetheless........

And i believe reality is just our perception........ our belief does matter....... but i dun believe in isolism... hmmm..... i think a lot of my beliefs are based on the basic belief that our existence has a purpose....... if u take that basic assumption as true, u can deduce everything after that reasonably..........

But, as i said to li hui, ultimately, philosophy is a subject that can never be resolved..... everything in the world, in order to make a conclusion, a theory, u need assumptions.... reasonanble assumptions, yes, but assumptions nonetheless........ imagine it this way, if u do not assume that 1+1=2, u cannot derive anything in maths......... similarily, physics, chemistry and biology only hold true in their own framework of existence.... however, in philo, u cant make any assumption.... cause in philo, u have to qn everything............... and in philo, u know only one thing, and the thing is that you know one thing.... Philosophy is like the grand unified theory in physics.... its a possible for it to reach a logical conclusion..... but there are endless contridictions, etc that one would face............ and in philo, everything is similar to dark matter, everything exists as just beliefs, theories are invented as theories trying to explain the observed effect...... but due to the single direction of time (lets just assume its true here, shall blog abt time travel next time), anyway, since time only flows in one direction, theres no way u can repeat exactly the same scenerio with only one variable changed to test the theories...... besides, everything in philo are idealist scenerios.... real life is much complicated......... in sciences, u can make assumptions to get a simple ideal model and slowly remove the assumptions to make it more life like...... but u cant make that assumption in physics.... everything in philo is highly interrelated.... its impossible to remove a assumption cause everything in philo are too closely related.... interwined.... haha....

hmmm..... thats all today xP........ i feel super tempted to blog more abt even more confusing stuff.... but im scared of getting sued for brain dmg xP

2007-08-27T18:45:00.001+08:00

30+ mins to last me for 30+ days........

1 min a day...........

O well, i know i should be content =) =)
I'll keep waiting =) =)

2007-08-23T21:50:00.000+08:00

What's happening to me?????? My mood swings are getting wilder..... my actions are getting more and more unpredictable.... and i've been letting almost everyone down..... to everyone who i've let down or hurt in any way in the past few days, I'm really sorry................

Hmm............ I've decided..... i'll settle everything by next tuesday...... Then, ill sit down and truly concentrate on my studies.... I owe it to myself, and to everyone else who believed in me, to truly put in effort into my studies..... I guess this is the only way..... only 1 mth plus left till promos...... for this one mth, i guess..... nothing else would matter....... unless something drastic really happens.......

Its time to shelf my feelings....... I guess, after all, u were right........ We cant concentrate on our studies and be in love at the same time...... But that doesnt mean i'll stop waiting for u..... it just means that for this one mth, my studies would come first...... and after the promos..... I know... my feelings for you wont change....... and ill continue waiting =) waiting for that day to come =) cause i believe........

2007-08-20T21:53:00.001+08:00

=) =) =) happy =) =) =)

xP

2007-08-15T18:22:00.000+08:00

lol........ today was a super hilarous day lor......... lol......... i think i almost died from laughing too much..........

lol...... haha.... firstly, at chem lecture..... micheal was sleeping as usual.... then box went to write OMG! PWNED!!! on his paper, where he was suppose to try and solve the qn...... then suddenly, the lecturer wanted to ask someone to show his ans.... then somehow, she saw sam lee, so ask him to ask someone from 6k to go down...... then mr lee super evil lor..... so he decided to send micheal down..... then the lecturer thought micheal had the ans..... so micheal was like walking down slowly, looking super confident lor...... then when he showed his paper to the lecturer, the lecturer was like wtf? and flashed micheal's paper on the visualiser.......... lol....... then the whole audi burst out laughing...........

hmm..... then nothing much for physics and bio lecture..... then maths tutorial..... micheal was full of his usual crap la.... but nothing much...... Haha..... then we went to tech semiconductors...... super funny lor.... hmmm...... mr lee was like trying to find out stuff from us thru torture xP..... haha..... then we went to the clean room to look at the wafers..... then super funny lor..... we were like putting on the clean suits..... then mine was still in the plastic bag.... so i asked, are we suppose to just rip open the plastic bag? Then, yi tyan was like, no, u can just wait for it to quantum tunnel out....... lol... then i burst out laughing lol..... and i couldnt stop.... then mr lee just finished putting on his clean suit, so he thought i was laughing at him...... then he was staring at me and saying, ur look just like me later..... and im like half laughing and half trying to say, im not laughing at u, really!!!.......... then while i was putting on my clean suit, mr lee kept staring at me.... then his facial expression super weird lor.... so i couldnt stop laughing lor....... lol..... then mr lee and siyuan was like "kissing"... cause the part of the clean suit covering the mouth was ballooned out..... then they were bumping their ballooned out mouth cover against each other lol........ and they make a super sweet couple XD............ hahaha....... then when we went back for refreshments, mr lee took the second lift.... so we were on the first lift, then micheal was like, faster take everything!!!!! dun let mr lee eat!!!! LOL............ haha..... super funny lor...............

Hmmm..... i realise mr lee likes to give me his evil look lor =S...... haha.... and if he reads this, i think he'll give me even more evil looks xP........

2007-08-13T19:43:00.000+08:00

Contented =) Well, it wasnt all that i expected, but im content =) hmm.... hope u felt better after that too.....

hmmm...... im a guy that never likes to wait..... but after all, there are some things in life worth waiting for.... and for those stuff, waiting 3 hours is nothing =)

After all, I'm prepared to wait forever =)

I know that day will come =)

Hmm.... first time in a long while that my blog post has so many smileys =)..... haha..... but feelings super happy now =)

2007-08-11T09:32:00.000+08:00

IDIOT......seriously.......

If only this whole week nvr happened...........

If only i can wake up and realised that it was all a nightmare.........

2007-08-09T18:59:00.000+08:00

This post is dedicated to the three ppl that i hurt...... unknowingly.....

I dunno what to say..... i nvr meant for any of this to happen..... it was a simple convo over dinner...... and yet...... Im sorry..... none of this shld have happened.......

Guilt...... overwhelming guilt.... Directly, or indirectly, I know im the cause of all this...... this shldnt have happened.... if only i had kept my emotions in check...... I'm sorry..... i know thats not enuf, but thats all i can say....

First, to the girl who i only just knew...... If only we hadnt said that much over dinner..... maybe u wouldnt be caught in this argh.... confusion.... this troubles that actually didnt concern us..... Hmm........... If we could turn back time, would u rather that yesterday night didnt take place at all?

Secondly, to the guy whos frenship i might have lost forever...... I know u feel as if i have backstabbed u...... but i can only ask u to believe me that i didnt mean it..... I know u and I would never truly understand each other, cause we are way too different, two extremes of a spectrum....... I didnt mean to judge u or say that what u do is wrong ..... but just that i dun agree with the way u do some stuff..... but as i said, im sorry... and i do respect the way u choose to live ur life..... so can we still be frens?

Thirdly, and most importantly, to the girl who likes the guy i just mentioned..... Im really really sorry for draggind u into this mess..... U r one of the nicest girl i ever met.... and im sorry for all that happened..... it wasnt ur fault... it wasnt ur choice.... I also didnt want this to happen........ but im sorry that it has to turn out this way...... I can only hope the two of u can have a happy ending..... im really really sorry....

2007-08-09T11:43:00.000+08:00

OMG.... Im going bald!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! at least, according to my barber -.-"

2007-08-04T20:47:00.000+08:00

hmmm...... i was attending my art lesson today..... i dunno..... every time i paint, i paint using my feeling..... actually, i follow my feelings.... i dun really think when i paint.... i just let my hands follow my feelings...... but today.... when i took up my paint brush again.... when i reached for the place where my feelings once were..... i only find confusion....... In the place where my emotions were so certain, so firm, so sure..... i only feel a mess now.... a tangled mess of emotions.....

Then i started to reflect..... and the more i think, the more troubled i feel.......... my world has been turned upside down and right side up too many times in the past month...... i've been through the most extreme emotional rollar coaster..... I lost faith in many of my beliefs.... other beliefs have been crushed..... i've changed my perspectives on a lot of stuff.... i've gained new beliefs, new understandings.............

And yet, all this just makes everything so much more complex..... Sometimes, i wish i could just be a simple person..... but i know, thats not only an impossible dream, but also, if i were to lead a simple life, i wont be me anymore............

haha....... confused.... and lost.......

2007-08-01T15:26:00.000+08:00

Coward......... nothing but a coward...

2007-07-29T11:34:00.000+08:00

~Its better to have loved and lost than to have never loved before~

What happened was no-one fault........

I finally understood what it meant to love someone

I'll wait..... cause i believe, deep down in ur heart somewhere, theres a part with my name written on it.....

I'll wait with a smile, cause i truly understand what it means to be in love now......

At least we had our times together to look back on =)

This post is dedicated to you, just as you dedicated urs to me

2007-07-28T09:54:00.001+08:00

lol.... haven updated in a long time.... haha.... mainly blogging now cause someone asked me to.... lol..... hmmmm.... feel like changing my blogskin to something happier XD.... but too busy nowadays.... haha....

hmmmm.... first blog test.... argh..... super sad over my results la.... firstly, a miserable E for my bio..... then after that, THREE 59s!!!!! omg.... damn what la... 3 points for no reason lo.... then my msg is like 2.6..... sian la.... really upset abt my results...... and the fact is, i could have done much better, just that i spent too much time slacking...... hmmm.... promise ill do better for promos..... at least get 3 As and 2Bs.....

hmmm.... the past 2 weeks past by in a flash.... very sian lo..... the same old stuff, just stone stone stone...... hmmm...... but feeling quite happy this few days la =)...... but also missing all the ppl from ISS....

男子汉，大丈夫，拿得起放得下 =)

2007-07-16T16:34:00.000+08:00

hmmm.... long time nvr blog liao.... haha..... first, blocks, nothing much to blog abt.... haha.... then immdeiately left for australia..... haha..... australia was damn fun.... a lot of emo-ing, but also a lot of new and good friends.... haha..... shant blog abt it today.... haha.... shall spam a long post on it next time.... hmmm.... anyway, came back on 14th july night.... then went to xyxy outing.... hmm.... quite sian la.... was mostly emo-ing abt aust the whole day..... then today went to sch.... nothing much la.... just that so totally screwed up my physics test...... its not as if it was so freaking hard..... ok fine, it was hard... but i shld still be able to do it one..... i just somehow totally blanked out and screwed up the test..... argh..... now praying for a b..... argh.... nvr thought i would see this day coming...........

its amazing how a simple sms got cheer me up so much =)

2007-07-15T11:02:00.001+08:00

Courage.....

The courage to let go =)

2007-06-24T19:42:00.001+08:00

What is it that you truly yearn for in life? Is it about the money, the career, fame? Or is it about passion, about joy? In this painting, I wish to express our true innate and pure desires. The sunset, a scene of beauty and glory, represents our desire for beauty, not only in appearance, but also the beauty of the soul. The birds, majestic and free, soaring through the skies, represent our desire for freedom, a desire for a world where we can do anything we want, without being tied down by superficialities. The dolphins, joyous and proud, leaping out of the water surface in exultant burst of water, represent our desire for joy, pure and simple bliss. The rose, exquisite and unique, an object reserved for the dearest of friends, represent our desire for love. The snowy landscape, pure and tranquil, presents our desire for peace and quiet. And yet, while we stretch out our hands, reaching for our true desires, we find ourselves, chained down by our humane and superficial desires. We strain against these chains, attempting to break free of such social perceptions and restrains, but...

2007-06-12T22:11:00.000+08:00

hmm, haha, my painting:

haha, the result of my sweat and toil for two weeks.....hmm.... i really like this painting, not only because i painted it, but rather the meaning it carries.... hmm, every painting has a story of its own, open to interpretation.... and every painting reflects the emotions, the beliefs, the views of the artist, it tells the story of the artist....

hmm, this yr, a lot of paintings are abt stress... haha, reflects what the education system is doing to youths today.... for mine, its not abt stress, its more of despair, an impossible dream.....

When I orginally painted this painting, the meaning was as follows:

Within each of the 5 circles, it represents something that i feel that humans truly desire, the rose represents love, not just relationship, but also family love, brotherly love, etc.... the snowy landscape represents purity, innocence, tranquility..... the sunset represents beauty, glory, and also hope..... the dolphins represent joy, peace.... and the birds represent freedom, courage.........

Why circles? hmm, for me, circles represent a sense of wholeness, roundness, a sense of prefection... and the circles are bubbles, representing the fragileness and vulnerability of the things we yearn for....... and the hand, straining, reaching for the bubbles.... but they lie just beyond his reach...... the chain of words, such as stress, cash, job, car, salary, etc, represent the useless, materialistic pursuits that tie us down, that prevent us from achieving our dreams.......

For me, this painting shows a hand, tied down by the materialistic nature of the society, and thus unable to truly achieve what it desires..... hmm, the hand and the background are all black, cause they represent a sense of hopelessness, that the bright bubbles are the only lighted objects, representing hope..... as for the choice of imagery inside the bubbles... i chose all natural stuff.... simply because i want to remove the human touch, the human feel.... in a sense, if for example, the rose was replace by two ppl holding hands, it becomes very superficial, it becomes unreal in a sense.... cause i want to show a pure love, a pure joy, a pure tranquility.... in a sense, i feel that adding a human touch corrupts the purity.......

haha, from all the talk above, i guess u can effectively deduce that im in love with my painting =)

2007-06-09T21:10:00.000+08:00

haha..... havent blogged for a long time.... hmm, nothing much happened, besides rushing here and there and doing a lot of random stuff..... haha, most interesting thing is going to mr lee's house on monday to zam wii..... haha... damn fun lol... the new technology damn cool lol.... was zam-ing it all the way till 5, then chiong to cine to watch shrek 3.... haha, then went to eat sushi =S.. lol, half the stuff there i dun like to eat lol.... haha..... but nvm.... haha....

but most fun is thurs and fri lol... haha, huagang camp =)... haha, only joined them in the afternoon... watched them participate in activities hosted by the sec 3s... hmm, to be frank, the activities were hmm.... not that well-prepared, when i first saw, i thought they only knew they had to prepare such an activity one day ago lol...... then when jon lee told me they had three weeks to prepare, my jaw dropped, literally..... lol... then at night, after all the interviews, me and william went to get ice-cream from 7-eleven.... lol... then after that, the exco and us ordered mac delivery.... lol.... then solo walk for juniors....was supposed to be station master..... but then fell asleep waiting for juniors lol..... lol.....

then friday went to see dentist and then home, before returning to school... lol, then meng play random games...... lol.... then had dinners with a lot of old seniors, bing kai, zhong yao, ze jia, jun wen, and many others....haha... then kiwi smartly decided to niao seniors... haha, then he wanted to worm his way out of getting bonded, so he started telling lame jokes... lol.... o ya, dj also kena niao-ed lol.... then dj started talking abt dirty stuff.... extremely sick stuff lol.... then ze jia's femail fren was also listening thru his phone, which dj conviently forgot.... LOL.... after that went to watch juniors perform.... hmm, quite ok la.... haha... then we bonded kiwi on stage.... haha, but only shirt la... haha, cause juniors arnd..... hmm.....then chuan deng...... after that we went to drama centre, did a lot of random stuff until 1+..... lol... then bing kai lead us to walk all the way to opposite beauty world for roti prata, quite sane ah, 8 ppl, 7 black 1 white, walking down the road at 2am....haha.... the prata was ok la, but onion taste damns strong lol.... then actually wanted to go to kap to sleep and then wait for bus back to sch... but ended up kap is locked... so took bus back to sch and slept..... lol.....

2007-05-28T19:18:00.000+08:00

do not do unto others what u do not wish done unto urself......

i've stuck to this principle whenever dealing with others.... i treat others to the best that i can... but then, i guess some ppl dun live by that principle.... perhaps, no matter how well u treat some ppl, it will still end up the same way.... sigh....

(P.S. i doubt anyone whos reading this know what i talking abt, and the person im talking abt is not her and its most probably not you if you are reading this blog)

sigh.... nvm, shall blog abt happier stuff =)

HUI QING <333!!! hui qing rocks =) seriously, despite the seriously countless amt of screw-ups.... at least the spirit was high throughout =) haha...... if given a choice of whether i want to be games i/c if i could do it all over again, my ans is a definite yes!!!!! being games i/c may be quite tough and challenging but its entirely rewarding =)

From the first time, sitting at home on a sunday afternoon, thinking of games for hui qing, to the numerous xiao zu meetings and discussions, to the hui qing chou wei meetings, to the trying out of games, to the frantic rehearsals on the actual day, to the actual event, i loved every minute of it =)

To be frank, i thought the games were quite screwed up =S.... but after hearing some feedback from seniors and batchmates, esp. wei long, i guess it was ok, but of cos, if given a second chance, i would definitely try and make it better =).......

but at least i thought the audience enjoyed it, and there werent so many leng changs.... haha.... and i think i did quite well, considering its my first time hosting a game.... haha, second game i kinda blanked out for a sec on stage.... cause SOMEHOW the audience size seemed to have shrinked by a lot...... lol.... haha... and second game kena stabbed XD lol

anyway, the first dance was quite lame lol.... me, kelly, william, bo rui, jin hao and a lot of other random ppl was hiding up in the second storey... then jia min came up to shout at us..... then bo rui was dangling his finger in front of her and saying " you cannot see us..... you cannot see us" LOL..... then after that songs session!!! SUPER HIGH lol =) then jin hao kenna scammed during peng you... hahaha.... then dance again... haha... then guilt from "pon-ing the first dance" prevented me from "going to get a drink".... so i ended up dancing lol.... luckily, rui xiong was in front of me, so i could just follow him lol..... haha.....

HUI QING!!! <3333

2007-05-27T20:50:00.000+08:00

how time flies......

i thought this week would be slack..... after all, its the last week of the term.... but apparently, im sadly mistaken

monday was as usual, busy like siao...... then reach home pia hui qing stuff..... then tuesday pia gpp.... wednesday hui qing full run.... then best of syf concert... then reach home pia gp presentation.... thurs another busy like siao day.... then friday went to watch pirates at 8.45.... then movie only ended at 11.45 lol.... a bit sane.... lol.... then sat was hui qing!!!! haha, not bad la... quite fun... haha.... no mood to blog abt it... lol, kena stabbed during second game =S.....

躁急，躁急，躁急有什么用？到头来还不是白躁急一场。。。

eee.... no mood to blog now.....

2007-05-18T21:15:00.000+08:00

失望。。。非常的失望。。。。今天，不去看任何演出。。就是为了回去看学弟们。。。参加他们的庆功宴。。。为了就是能和学弟们一起庆祝。。。多了解学弟。。。

the greater the hope, the greater the disappointment..... qing gong yan.... what sort of qing gong yan was it??? the juniors just ate and left..... wtf???.... and what happened to allowing seniors to eat first???? its not abt whether u do so or not, but rather the thought behind allowing seniors to eat first...... and only a small grp of ppl, and yet they sit so spread out... sticking to their own cliques.... and what did we do??? nothing..... sitting there, stoning.... we didnt even sing hui ge..... y???? In this case, might as well call it a free dinner....

hmmm.... i noe its not entirely the juniors faults...... i noe yang doesnt allow for a lot of stuff... and give u guys a lot of restrictions..... but so what??? u guys are the exco for a reason.... so be the exco.... work round the red tapes....

Seriously, hopefully, the next time when i go back..... it can be better.....

2007-05-06T09:37:00.000+08:00

haha... finally free after all the tests =).... shall not re-live the tests, so shall blog abt saturday only...... haha................. sat was one of the most fruitful days of this few months...... haha

woke up at 6, lazed arnd and played games until 11.30..... then went to ulu pandan cc to watch interschool chinese short play competition...... hmm.... overall, i think the quality was ok..... except that i felt some schools dun deserve what they got.... like ny, i think they deserve at least a gold lor.... although the plot was rather overused, but then, the acting was seriously good.... and somemore i found out quite a few of them was subsitutes.... the real actors during syf was somehow unavailable....... haha...... then i think hc and rv both deserve a gold with honours..... rv play had a very interesting and thought provoking concept.... the overall feel was quite good and the plot was extremely engaging.... however, the actors werent that good...... hmm, not that they are bad or anything, but they are not that good..... they sort of dragged the whole play a bit, and did not really use the stage properly on certain occasions..... and then the part where they wanted to kill themselves, they didnt act out the shooting very well, or rather, they made it rather comical, so while it was meant to be thought-provoking, it actually made the audience laugh, but overall, i think rv seriously improved by a lot.... from last yr's cmi performance, to this yr's gold... haha, rising threat for hc........... hmmm, as for hc's play, i would say they did very well, and im proud of my juniors =)... hmm, but then, i think they could have done better.... the show was action packed, yes, but not enough... the actors were good, extremely good, in fact, but i noe they could have done better... .... hmm, maybe i have too high expectations of my juniors, or maybe because i've seen the almost perfect version of it before liao.... haha.... but they did very well, extremely well =) However, i dun think vs deserved their gold with honours..... their acting was good, but not as good as hc's or ny's, their flow of events was jagged, weird.... and their plot, is non-existent...... they dun even have a central theme for the play, and the focus just jumped from one event to the other..... somemore, it doesnt have any feel, impact.....

hmm, as for jc side, i think the overall quality of the play rocks =).... except for rjc's.... haha..... missed the first two plays cause we came back late.... but acjc's play was extremely well done... their acting is extremely good, and their script was quite well done too, but i think the script sort of limited the play... as in, the play alrdy reached the max it can go.... hmm, but i think they do deserve their gold with honours.... another play that i truly like was njc's play, not only was it engaging, it made full use of the stage, it used cloth, paper, colour clothes, to represent different things..... the acting was extremely well done, the plot flowed very well, and the representations, even better..... the script was imba, it was abstract and yet direct, it was deep and thought-provoking.... it sort of quantified feelings into colours..... hmm, as for tjc's play, which got champion, i think it was good, but not that good..... hmm, the plot was not as deep and thought provoking as njc's and the acting, well, anyone could act as crazy idiots..... it was nice.... but i think njc and acjc did better............... rjc's play was totally crap lol..... to quote kianyang: "to preserve ur sanity, i would advise you to sleep through their play"... sheesh, rjc's play had no content, no plot, no meaning, and the acting wasnt that good, except for the main actor, who was quite zhai..... but seriously, they do not deserve that gold.... them getting that gold is like an insult to the rest who also got gold......

After that, went to watch acjc's drama production.... hmm, well, it was extremely worth the 8 dollars, the first play was just ok ok..... but the second play.... wow, it truly captured my attention, it was nice, thought provoking, deep, but yet so simple..... every single conflict is portrayed out by the simple task of trying to get from one end of the room to the other.... the third one was even more zhai, the careful integration of poetry and dance, but it felt to me more of a dance and poetry than a performance..... hmm.... fourth one was quite nice too... haha, but fell asleep during the fifth one =S.....

haha, then after the performance, kianyang damn zai lol, dao the mac outside and drag us back to clarke quay to eat dinner at 10+..... then end up no stores open..... so ended up going home... then damn zai lol.... i reach chinese garden mrt at 11+... then all the stores and coffeeshops close liao.... so ended up going 7-11... then wanted to get sandwich to eat...... then the shop attendant ap me lol.... the microwave power was off... so i ask him help me on... then he say what past 11 liao, so all the electrical appliances etc are closed.... only can buy normal food....... so i ended up having cookies for dinner -.-" all kianyang's fault.....

2007-05-01T19:10:00.000+08:00

lol........ just came home from cjc bridge com......... ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!! damn er la.... matchup was freaking gay for us lol........ first round against zhi bang's team, aka hc's most pro team.... then second round against rjc's second best team..... argh..... first two rounds 15/50.... a bit not pwned..... then sian diao liao..... cause no chance to get into finals....... haha...... very er lol........ sianz......... if not such a bad matchup... then maybe still can do better lol..... very sian.... overall only 3 wins out of 7 games...... zzzz

2007-04-29T13:56:00.000+08:00

Changes...... hmmm........ yesterday night..... after fac outing, was talking to zhi kai on the mrt........ haha....... after that..... i suddenly realised how much i've changed..... from a person who spams lame jokes and laughs a lot to a emo guy that only smiles...... haha.... realised that the number of times that i truly laugh each day can be counted using my two hands only..... perhaps its my ct.... haha, not saying that my ct is bad or anything, but theres no-one i can truly talk with.... someone i can just pour out my emotions to...... or perhaps, its the crazy jc life.... I rarely get an hour of peace, just sitting there and enjoying life...... instead, im rushing from lesson to lesson, with rare little breaks in between..... expectations in jc is also so much higher..... we have to read up our notes before lectures, do the pre-lecture tests, etc, etc..... throw in all the random stuff, like my external art lessons, the only free day i have left is sunday, which is usually consumed by work and other stuff....... I guess jc changed me a lot........ but for better or for worse?

hmm..... rmb one qn jianghao asked me, if i had a choice to take any subjects based on my passion and nothing else, what would i take......

haha, believe it or not, i would wanna take half of bio, half of chem, physics, maths, literature and KI......... haha............. a very weird combi right?........ hmm... bio is quite a interesting topic, but i rather hate the fact that u have to just memorise everything and just spam it during test.... besides, i find some bio topics, such as digestive system, enzymes, rather dry..... on the other hand, stuff such as DNA and genetics captures my attention......... haha....... chemistry is another nice topic..... but somehow, i dun feel any strong attraction towards it. It is a interesting topic, not so much memorising, quite a lot of fun stuff, but it gives me a sense of detachness, especially since the introduction of spa, where even practs become plain memorising...... haha..... but still, chemistry is a nice subject...... physics, haha, my favourite subject =)..... haha, physics tutorials, esp under mr. koh, has been extremely thought provoking and insightful....... Physics is like a goodie bag, at first, it just seems very plain, but once u delve into it, u get memerised by its intricacies, its beauty..... physics explains everything or at least tries to, from the huge expanse of the universe, to the smallest vibration of a atom........ haha, maths..... another =)........ maths, especially complicated problems, is so fun...... from a few remote pieces of info, u slowly pieces it together, deduce the problem step by step and watch as the answer slowly unfolds......... the satisfaction derived =)......... haha, literature, perhaps the most unexpected choice of all.... haha..... literature is a subject that i find most thought provoking........ it challenges ur viewpoints on everything.... it gives us a new pair of eyes, a new way to look at the world, a new way to understand our actions....... If physics is a goodie bag, then literature would be a pair of wacky specs =)............. KI, haha, after doing intertextualities in sec 4, i was memerised by this topic..... fatalism, determinisim, free will, belief, dreams, interconnectedness............ KI, like literature, but more rational, more perspective, attempts to explain everything, in a rational and logical way....... KI/literature and physics/maths might seem so contridictory, but speaking from a view of a person who likes both, i think they are just parallel roads.... both seeking the same final destination, both racing towards the finish, but going by two different methods, one seeking to explain everything by logic, one seeking to explain everything by theory. So different........... and yet so similar........ perhaps, one day, this two topics might merge into one....... KIMS, knowledge and inquiry of mathematics and sciences......... haha.........

hmmm.......... after so much random ranting......... its time to get back to mugging chem and bio....... haha........

2007-04-22T14:52:00.000+08:00

haha........ havent updated for quite some time liao.......... hmm.......... nothing much happened during the past two weeks, just meng mugging for maths test, pia hw..... prepare for spa, etc...... jc life is seriously getting tiring lol....... im like spending almost half a day daily in sch..... hmm, thursday and friday were relatively calm days, but they r like the prelude to the storm XD........ monday physics test, friday chem spa, next tues, bridge competiton, wed, chem test, fri, bio test...... omg....... lol...... haha........ nvm....... shall take things one step at a time..... haha.........

anyway, yesterday was clearing hui suo..... haha..... damn fun lol..... its like at the start we had to carry everything out........ then its like, hui suo is such a small rm, but once we carry everything out....... we almost take up the entire left side of the rooftop of block A....... and we could actually SEE the floor of the hui suo......... haha, and the hui suo was actually quite ok sized lol....... not as small as we imagined..... hmm..... spent the morning sorting out make up stuff..... *glares at the two make up grp leaders and the rest of the members*..... then after that went to help dao ju..... haha, saw a lot of random stuff.... like stools, cute soft toys =), toy guns, oil lamps, strips of multi-coloured cloth O_o and of cos, DARTBOARD!!!!!!!! haha...... then we spent the rest of the time until lunch to play darts..... haha...... damn fun lol......... then we went for lunch.... where we talked a lot of crap....... haha...... then we went up and continued playing darts, and i owned =)..... haha..... then after that helped out dao ju a bit more..... then we went to open the black tub sheet, aka the black plastic used to make the starch pool and slippery slope......... haha....... damn er lol........ there were all sorts of random substances on the sheet..... then when we opened it up, it took up the entire right half of the rooftop of block A, and still have to hang over the railings..... lol..... then we were using a fire hose to wash it O_O lol..... then after that, we packed up the hui suo and went kap.... haha...... unfortunately, not enuf seats for the 24 ppl lol.... so guess what happened? we sat along the corridor and ate our dinner, a brilliant plan by jin hao -.-" .......... anyway, so we went on to play all sorts of weird games, such as taidi with huangcheng postcards.... then we played truth or dare -.-".... all sorts of weird stuff.... shant talk abt them here =S.... very traumatising.... luckily, i didnt have to ans any truth or dare lol..... haha.........

then now, im suppose to be studying physics for the test tmr.... but currently no mood to study.... zzzz.... for the first time, im actually kinda afraid that i might fail my physics test.... =S....... haha... shall stop here n go mug phy liao....

2007-04-09T20:03:00.000+08:00

hmmm.... shall blog abt happy stuff today =) =)..... lol... thursday night went west mall to watch Mr bean's holiday.... damn funny lol..... especially the consumed by love part..... haha, quotes from yi tyan: "this part very lame..... that part also very lame....... ermmm, actually the whole movie is damn lame lol".... LOL...... then friday went class outing at marina south..... only 3 junior class peeps went..... haha, then we went to bowl..... sadly, my bowling scores dropped from around 70-90 to 50-60..... haha.... damn zibei lol..... kena pwned by senior class...... then we went to play lan......... omg... the coms damn suck lol..... wasted 20 mins for the uncle to fix the coms..... then when i was like starting to own liao.... TIMES UP..... -.-" ..... then went to eat steamboat..... haha, juniors unite!!!! 3 of us shared one bbq lol..... then when we finished eating, the seniors werent even half done lol....... then the seniors damn er lol..... their table got all sort of weird stuff.... cooked and uncooked food put together.... all the trash also put around the table.... then they started putting all the weird stuff inside their soup....... damn traumatising lol...... then me and micheal went to play arcade.... haha....... then we played pool!!!!!!! yay!!! lol.......... then sat was huangcheng elections cum xiao huang cheng........ hmmmmmm..... congrats to new exco and production com =).......... then xiao hc was a meng stabbing and niao-ing session...... haha... shall not go into details here...... hmmm...... today was quite a normal day..... haha.......... hmm.... shall go and do hw now..... haha....

2007-04-06T23:48:00.000+08:00

very traumatised now..... freaking scared out of my mind when trying to walk to the mrt....... but this seriously scary experience really taught me a lot...... abt valuing my frens, and how much my frens and i care for each other...... really really thx to meihui and anne for walking with me thru the dark.... micheal for distracting us temporarily by saying some random stuff and trying to rmb the way....... yanlong for leading the way and getting his mum to fetch us...............

hmm.......... i noe i'll have nightmares abt this night....... but at least i noe, i have very very nice and caring seniors and classmates =)

2007-04-06T00:48:00.000+08:00

Using the word pissed to describe my feelings now is a serious understatment...... Fine, i didnt get into the mit programme.... i was prepared for that..... especially when i found out that 15 ppl signed up for it as first choice and there were only 6 slots...... But what really really pissed me off is the fact that EVEN THOUGH 15 ppl put it as first choice, ppl who DUN WAN it and put it as second choice GOT IT.... im like wtf la, is something wrong with moe or something? THERE ARE PPL WHO SERIOUSLY FREAKING WANT TO GET IN, and what do they do? THEY PUT PPL WHO WANT TO GO ELSEWHERE INTO THE MIT PROGRAMME..... wtf lol, seriously dunno what moe is thinking..... or perhaps they are just out to piss students off.......... almost the whole of hc ppl didnt get their first choice lol....... i think only esmond got it.....

and to think that i was super high when i reached home cause i was watching Mr Bean's Holiday....... haha..... graph of emotions varying from positive infinity to negative infinity.......

hmm, 4 ppl going aust, and 3 are from hc.... haha, wonder who the last lucky guy/gurl will be.........

2007-04-04T19:32:00.000+08:00

haha, congrats to those who got into council =)!!! for those who didnt, its ok! at least u guys tried ur best =)......

hmmm...... has been thinking of a lot of stuff this few days.... hmmm..... feeling really busy with schoolwork.... haha, kinda glad for that too.... so dun have too much time to think abt other stuff..... haha, longings fading into a dull ache and sudden pains....... hmm.... does that mean i dun care anymore?.... lol...... i doubt so... but perhaps sch work provides me with some relief, occuping my time...... haha......... why cant life be easier??? why cant we be in control of our emotions and feelings??? or am i too soft? or too emotional?? sometimes, for a whole day, i cant even finish a single assignment... y? cause i cant stop hurting, cant stop thinking...... haha, sms-ing someone today made me realise some things...... life aint that simple eh....... we have to get hurt to realise what joy is..... haha...... holding on, beliefs, choices, regrets, emotions, control....... so weird...... haha, this week has been a tough week.... hopefully it'll get better......

"One cannot be wise and in love at the same time..... for they are mutually exclusive......."
Quote of the day..... haha..... how true........

"Absence is to love what wind is to a flame, it extinguishes the small, it fuels the great"
2nd Quote of the day.... haha, the former, or the latter???

2007-04-02T20:29:00.000+08:00

hmmm..... for better or for worse..... i decided not to run for chinese society's exco..... hmmmm....... the main reason i wanted to run for exco was cause i think i want to be more involved and i hope to help chinese society to become better....... hmm..... but after much consideration..... firstly, i doubt that ill even get into exco, and secondly, even if i get in, i dun think i can help chinese society as much as the others who r running..... besides, my commitments are already so full..... and if i get in, i dun think i would be able to commit enuf time to it, thus letting everyone down..... and it wouldnt be fair to everyone if i get the role and cant do the job........ haha, so i finally decided to not run........ hopefully, i wont regret my decision...... it is a hard decision, but i believe its the correct one =) ........

hmm...... chem o tmr....... shld i mug???? or shld i do the same thing as for the stp and srp selection test?? just sleep early and heck care???? haha, sometimes, there are just too many decisions to be made.....

2007-04-01T11:34:00.000+08:00

Shld i run for chinese society exco? hmmm.... -confused-

2007-03-31T15:04:00.000+08:00

hmm..... this week was quite ok..... hmm... nothing eventful happened on monday, tues, wed, thurs..... haha...... quite sianzz.... haha, but friday was super high day for me.... haha... morning nothing much..... then afternoon go for interview.....hmm.... quite ok la..... haha..... then pia back to sch for huangcheng elections briefing... haha.... going to run for secretary and sm..... hmmm.... hopefully can get the positions i want =).... then after that go back to huagang...... haha, hui qing!!!!!! yay!!!! a lot of us came back, then still got all the even older seniors..... haha, at the start quite sian... still playing with the flour balloon -.-".... haha.... then went canteen for dinner........... then go back to salt centre.... and then we started randomly high-ing..... haha, boon started the ball rolling by dancing ares fac dance.... then we forced zk and xy to dance artemis fac dance....... then halfway, zk forgot the steps..... hahaha.... then we force dj to sub him.... haha..... then kiwi went to dance apollo fac dance...... then halfway thru, jun wen came in and stared at him.... then kiwi didnt notice and continued dancing..... then jun wen was like staring at kiwi over kiwi's shoulder... then we were all laughing like mad..... haha....... then kiwi suddenly saw jun wen..... and he went ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol.... very high pitched...... haha...... laugh until stomach cramp...... then after that juniors came back liao..... so seniors stop high-ing liao....... then juniors put up two nice plays for us.... haha...... then jlo messed up his line lol, he said: "人志穷不志"instead of "人穷志不穷" LOL..... then seniors laugh like crazy.... haha..... overall, the plays were quite nice la.... considering the fact that they only had 1 week to prepare.... hmmm.... very pleased with this yr's batch of sec 1s..... haha......
seniors were super high lol..... we kept doing weird and crazy stuff..... like during lights off, jeffery ran up and pretended to die on stage......haha.... then we had huagang most *** competition..... then we started meng sabo-ing ppl....... haha....... i think juniors must have been scared by how crazy the seniors are.......... haha....... overall, guess hui qing was quite fun la..... good job, 29th hg exco!!!! haha....

hmm.... read yinghan's blog... haha, guess i kinda agree with what he says.....

记得第一次，搭入华岗，心里有那么一点的害怕，一点的不安，但又带着满怀的希望，期盼。。。哈哈，没想到，四年就这么地过了。。。我很高兴，很骄傲能做华岗第27代人。。。。从中一的《厕所》，中二的《李光前》到中三的《因为有你》，中四的《新韵.心韵》，我从来没有后悔过。。。也许，我们没有做到最好的。。。但我们已经尽力了。。。华岗的路是不好走。。。但我们还是要走下去。。。颖翰说：“对于现在的执委，可以说，对他们来说，他们是尽力了。不过，对我们这一届来说，可能还不算尽力吧。本质的不同吧？”。。。。哈哈，我们,成了学长，对执委是有那么一点的失望。。。我，从来就不喜欢骂学弟们。。。但是，看了颖翰给的例子。。。我也吓倒了。。。若我看见了，我也一样会骂。。。“散会，竟然需跑跑道3次”。。。散会，只能拍一声，因为一声，代表我们心是齐的。。。。难道，华岗人的心就那么不齐吗？以前，我们有过一次就成功了。。。最惨最惨，也就是跑跑道1次。。。。。。哈哈，说不想骂，但还是对华岗有那么一点的失望。。。。但是，也不能说是执委的错。。。他们始终是已经尽力了。。。但是，他们就是无法使学弟们团结起来。。。哈哈，执委，加油吧！不要留下任何遗憾。。。

2007-03-25T21:40:00.000+08:00

hm...... being feeling drowsy and dead for the past week..... and i just realised why.... haha, not enuf sugar in my system..... haha.... felt much better on friday night after eating a choco bar =)..... but then resulted in super sleeping disorder =S.... friday night was awake all the way until 3 or 4 am then went to sleep.... woke up arnd 8 to go for simo..... then return home and sleep in the afternoon..... then sat night couldnt sleep again..... haha.... wee.....

hmm.... last week was rather uneventful...... not much highlights..... only got 1 founder's day..... haha..... aka, prize giving ceremony... haha.... osa kinda meaningless liao..... its like any tom,dick or harry, as long as he meets the minimum requirement can get it...... on the other hand, ppl imba in certain fields but just lack a little in one field cant get it...... sigh........

hmm...... still missing huangcheng..... haha.... but i realised my timetable is NOT screwed at all.... haha..... earliest possible time of departure from school, Monday: 6.30 Tuesday:5.30 Wednesday:5.30 Thursday:7.00 Friday:6.30...... haha.....

well.... pressure seems to be setting in.... hw seems to be piling up..... but no mood to start mugging...... sigh..... wait, scratch that, i dun mug..... haha......

on a sidenote, hui qing next wk =)... hmm...... hopefully the juniors will put up a good show =)

2007-03-18T11:24:00.000+08:00

suddenly feeling very emo =(.......... sigh....... i guess i have yet to come to terms with the fact that huangcheng is over...... haha....... was mugging physics and talking to jiannan... then he said we dead liao....haha...... dunno y suddenly remind me of the phrase, 我们生是黄城人，死是黄城鬼.... haha..... 还是放不下..... sigh...... dunno y this time seriously so attached to huangcheng........ after all, i've been thru major productions 3 times liao.... this is the fourth...... sigh, perhaps rach is right, time doesnt heal all wounds...... haha..... i thought i would be better able to bear with this post production blues.... but i realised that i've just been lying to myself...... i've cramped my march holidays with everything i could find, so that i could avoid thinking abt phD.......... sigh........ not only phD, i guess what bo rui wrote also applies to me....... haha....... sigh...... listening to 疯狂世界 now..... haha, how true the lyrics are.... sigh... perhaps i shouldnt mug alone...... everytime i take up my notes, i can just somehow link to huangcheng.... then i start to emo liao..... sigh.... emptiness.... haha.... just the first term of jc1.... and yet so many beliefs i had are becoming question marks...... courage, letting go, not looking back, being true to myself....... all this i once believed i could achieve..... but now...... i dun even noe what i want anymore.... 我的心已经完全地失去方向..... haha, i feel seriously so unreal now.... everytime i hang out with frens or even with my family, i force myself to smile, to be happy, not to dampen everyone spirits..... and yet, once i leave my frens, my emotions just come crashing down......... sigh..... watched what a girl wants yesterday on tv... haha, seriously admire the girl.... she does not conform to social norms, she does what she wants and she does it with faith and confidence... really 佩服her personality..... sigh.... if only i could be a little more liddat..... if only i can believe in myself more.......... but what is there to believe in? hm?

2007-03-17T21:51:00.000+08:00

hm................ almost a week after huangcheng liao.......... but still in depression....... hm............ didnt do much this march hols..... monday went out to eat breakfast with dao ju ppl...... then tuesday spent recovering lost sleep...... wednesday morning, interview, screwed up...... damn er lol..... cause the judges was asking me abt general relativity.... then i go talk abt space-time dilation and twins' paradox..... then the judge niao me lol.... say, actually, thats special relativity, just thought u would like to noe -.-"..... then its like ppl interview 9 mins, my interview 3 mins finish liao...... zzz...... then after that chiong to raffles convention centre for the ydsp congress.... and realised zongying's shirt is NOT ironed -.-" *stares at zong ying*.... sigh.... then damn er lol....... the cameras like have endless flash one.... flash until we all see stars liao....... then we still have to kneel........ and then got one shot most er one... observe where sandra's knee is at..... then the photographer still ask me stand closer =S...... then thurs go see dentist..... then now teeth damn pain ...... eeee........ then friday...... evening class outing =).... played pool, played arcade and played lan..... hmmm, dota very sad, lost 2 games, win 1.... first game worst lol.... i had most kills, but due to a CERTAIN teammate's inability to defend a lane, we lost....... then second game most er...... it was 2v3... me on 2 team..... then my teammate went naix!!?! a bit sane.... then he go farm neutral...... i late game hero, defend against 2 mid game heros and 1 early game hero........... =S... sane...... but nvm, 3rd game i avenged myself....... haha.... 15 kills 0 deaths.... =).................

2007-03-13T16:17:00.000+08:00

sigh...... depression is finally setting in... after being emo for over a day liao.... hmmm....... yesterday was the first time i totally lost control of my emotions.... was like damn sad... then suddenly super high.... then suddenly damn pissed...... aiya....... at least now my mood swings slightly more under control liao.....

hmmmmmmmm..... huangcheng was seriously fun..... bump in was totally crazy and chaotic.... aiya..... hua zhuang was quite slack.... besides the hours when we were crazily trying to do make up on actors..... severely strained by actors' lack of free time.... -.-"..... aiyah....... sadly, i missed destroying the dao jus at vt......... then back at hc, couldnt destroy the dao jus cause too noisy liao... so end up only throw into dumpster...... haha.... then went rooftop and stare at stars....... then after that we had supper (macs) at canteen at 1am..... then we started talking crap in lt3.... doing very very stupid stuff... like talking abt all the scandals..... haha..... but very emo leh...... then after that play bridge on lt3 stage all the way until 6am.... siao lol.... then 6am went to central plaza.... where we sang huangcheng's song.... again.... but damn high lol.... then go to rooftop and look at the moon..... then morning go kap for breakfast...... hmmm.... alrdy very emo.... then go kap.... even more emo.... sigh.....

hm.......... seriously miss making dao ju..... sigh..... suddenly seeing amphi empty of dao ju... feels seriously weird... its like a house... when we started, it was empty... then we moved all the wood in.... then we started making dao jus.... thats like making sofas, chairs, tables.... etc..... then we started painting the dao jus, making the backdrops.... sigh...... thats like decorating the house.... then the amphi felt so much like home lol... still got our music =)... but then, today walk back to amphi...... suddenly so empty... its like walking back into ur house and finding it empty... sigh......... so saddening......

talking abt stuff.... i just realised the leaf that the glass shoe ppl gave their sm is exactly the same as the one used in the show whizzes of the void deck.......

2007-03-12T18:14:00.000+08:00

sigh..... huangcheng over liao =(.... very emo now.... sigh...... life without huangcheng is like amphi without props =(........ haha..... i dun think i shld blog in such a emo state =(.... sigh....... ht....

2007-03-04T07:38:00.000+08:00

haha.... had high fever from friday until yesterday night.... 39.5 degrees...... 3 degrees above my normal body temp lol....... but now 37.0... so almost normal liao....... haha..... i guess this fever is partially my own fault la...... i knew i wasnt feeling well since monday liao... but i though i could handle it... so i still went props daily.... end up friday my body suddenly rebel against me... zzz.... suddenly spike from 37.0 to 38.5 degrees...... haha.... so missed ct session and huangcheng.... also couldnt go for simo and huangcheng full run on sat =(..... spent the whole day lying in bed..... head hurts like hell..... haha........ i dunno leh... maybe if i just came home on monday after the rjc briefing and rested for a day, maybe i wouldnt have fallen so ill..... zzzz..... jts later... dunno whether i shld go..... haha..... v. worried abt my econs timed assignment and bio test... both still havent revised at all...... haha.... dun understand a single thing abt econs..... zzzzz.... plus missed so many lectures and tutorials liao...... i think i need to really mug econs during march holidays, if i have any holidays left.... haha.... 6 more days..... i must hold on =)

i wonder if i really have the courage.... the whole day i was sick, lying in bed, i couldnt help but think of her....... i dunno if anything i do now is worthwhile..... maybe i should have done more last time.... maybe wo pei bu shan ta....... haha.....走一步算一步吧.... i dunno.....maybe........ its time for me to let go.... to really let go.... and nvr look back........ but is it truly possible?

2007-03-01T23:11:00.000+08:00

haha.... just found out that out of the 5 rubik's cubes that i brought to sch.... 3 of them are lost liao....... v. sad.... haha.... but as my angel puts it, " U r sacrificing ur cubes to bring joy to the world =)......" haha..... see.... i so wei da....... haha........... anyway, anne asked me y my posts so emo.... haha... cause i dun usually rant my feelings face to face what.... so i rant them on my blog........ haha............... and our poor crap book got abused by xiu yi and anne =(.......

haha... today huangcheng went to make props with dao zhangs.... but then nothing much to do..... so listen to dao zhangs talk abt their personal stuff...... haha... somehow felt damn emo.... then started thinking abt her =(..... then somehow convo topic turned to me -.-".... anyway, didnt say much la.......... then heard that full run was screwed up =S...... damn sad......... and then while dao ju was getting scolded, i was stoning in one corner....... sometimes, its really hard to hold on to ur beliefs.... esp. when u see them failing.... haha....... sometimes........ its just abt holding on........ its not abt how solid the thing u r holding on to........

haha...... i dun think anyone understands what i say....... but perhaps its better this way...............

2007-02-24T23:11:00.000+08:00

haha, shall start blogging abt events from monday onwards..... haha.... monday went sandra's house to do ydsp poster..... then nothing much lol..... haha.... then tuesday went to mr. lee's house.... haha... very fun... started off by playing contract bridge.... then floating bridge... then played ps2.... samurai legend.... then ssx... snow surfing extreme.... haha...... damn er lol.... we kept trying to break the 3 min mark..... then i got 3.01 twice in a row -.-" very sad......... then after that dinner went kap..... haha.... very stupid leh..... 明知山有虎，偏向虎山行.... haha, tried to forget... but still cant... haha.....sad memories still came back..... then wednesday, thurs and friday all the same lol.... today morning went simo.... afternoon go huangcheng..... meng pia make up.... then after that go watch the full run..... but then watch until c's part then 看不下去了.... haha.... if continue watching might have cried there and then..... haha.... seriously cannot forget abt her.........then after that got scolded by seniors....... then went for bbq at marina bay with juniors...... quite fun la.....

haha.....明明说想忘了对她的爱。。。但是就是忘不了。。。哈哈。。。男子汗，大丈夫，拿得起，放得下。。。但是，我就是放不下。。。。i dunno what to do.... shld i give up? or shld i keep trying to forget? haha.... i never knew love was so hard...... i never knew i would become so crazy over a girl...... i never thought that, for one girl, i would be willing to give up everything for her.... and yet.... i dun have the courage to approach her.... i dun have the courage to talk to her.... to tell her how i feel..... haha... if only i had zk's courage... if only i didnt love her so much until im scared of losing her....... haha... how ironic is it? im scared of telling her how i feel cause i fear losing her..... yet im losing her by not telling her how i feel........ haha.... my heart hurts so much........ so much......... too much...

thoughts.........

2007-02-17T22:46:00.000+08:00

haha... been thinking a lot abt stuff lately.... Regret.... since sec 2, i promised myself nvr to look back... never to think of what might have been had i not choosen my current path...... i promised to follow my decision till the end...... i guess that philosophy served me well.... all the way until sec 4.... i guess it was easy for me to hold true to my promise... cause i never had to make as tough decisions as those that im making now...... I never thought i would be saying this... but im starting to doubt myself.... haha... not only abt my decision abt her.... i beginning to doubt whether im able to handle triple science.... whether i can truly commit to huangcheng.... whether i can truly set out to do what i want to do......

But sometimes.... i wonder... do i really noe what i want to do... sometimes, i spent hours over something... then losing interest in it..... im a guy with short attention span... haha.... sad eh.... I guess the only thing that i ever committed full heartedly to for more than half a year is her... but so what? I still gave up in the end..... haha...... ironic isnt it?

haha... i find myself regretting more and more stuff nowadays... im starting to regret a lot of choices.... haha... fear of regrets made me made choices that im regretting right now...... haha... but i dun like regrets...i see no point in regretting.... regretting doesnt help anything.. it doesnt give u a second chance.....

haha... just saw fortune told abt ppl born in the yr of the horse...... ppl born in the yr of the horse shld not engaged in affairs of the heart... haha.... just as well....... i wont forget her... nor would i woo her..... just let it be eh.... haha

haha.... just had a very interesting convo with william... from discussing complicated physics eqns, we came to this:

me: thats the contridiction
me: thats what got physicists banging their heads against whiteboards
william: lol ok lor
william: what makes knowledge certain? when nobody banged their head against whiteboard
me: haha
me: then they bang their head against blackboards lol
me: cause all the whiteboards all sploit by repeated bangings
william: errrrrr
william: lol
william: so amazing
william: chu xi
william: talking abt such stuffs

LOL

anyway, happy CNY everyone!!

2007-02-16T21:00:00.000+08:00

haha... this week quite chaotic.... wednesday cross country... then thursday ydsp presentation... then friday cny class store.... haha... wed was a sad day.... keep on kena reminded of a lot of sad stuff......... anyway..... fac dance for cny is rather screwed.... firstly, i couldnt find my dance partner... secondly, i couldnt dance, due to lack of space and not rmbing some of the moves.... and thirdly, i was dancing couple's part with a guy!!?!.....

haha... thought through a lot of things this week.... figured some stuff out, decided on some stuff... but as usual, theres that whole snowball of stuff that i could not comprehend or decide......sometimes, i dun understand life... why is life so interesting, so mysterious, yet so confusing, so complicated..... sometimes, i feel so helpless..... watching frens get upset and emo over stuff.... and cant help them.... then myself also not much better.....deciding things on the toss of a coin..... is regretting any help? a decision is a decision after all..... regretting is pointless... i dunno whether i made the right choice..... but no matter what, i guess ill follow my choice thru till the end..... haha.... i guess its ok as long as i tried my best................

haha.... theres always a right way and a easy way up the mountain... which one would u choose?... but which is the right way? which is the wrong one? which is the easy one? which is the hard way?

haha, just felt like ending with a quote: Friends are like walls of a house.... if need be, u can lean on them..... but usually, its great just to noe that they are standing by u....

2007-02-11T19:16:00.000+08:00

haha, this week nothing much to blog abt..... its all just pia-ing here and there... meng pia dao ju and hw...a bit not chaotic.... haha..... artemis rocks!!!!!!! now leading the scoreboard lol!!! GO ARTEMIS!!!!!

haha... art exhibition was quite fun... especially thx to those ppl who came down and support me... haha =)..... it was quite funny lol... stand behind my own paintings, then listen to ppl oblivious to u, commenting on ur paintings...

but today... i finally made a decision... sometimes, something going wrong doesnt mean its someone's fault.... sometimes, things are just not meant to be that way.... forgetting is not about the other person, its about releasing urself. sometimes, its best to just let things be..... haha, finallly thought it through.... i decided to give up... haha... giving up is not as bad as it sounds... maybe its better for things to be this way... haha... maybe i should have made this decision much earlier, make things easier for everyone.....haha.....

2007-02-11T12:00:00.000+08:00

Haha, advertisement here:

Art Exhibition at Ngee Ann Cultural Centre (opposite Fort Canning Park)
10th Feb, 3pm is opening, and i'll be there... (come down on this day if u can)
Or else if u just want to come and see the paintings, its on exhibit on 8th to 11th Feb

Come down and SUPPORT ME!!!!

2007-02-06T15:10:00.000+08:00

haha, blogging from sch now.... =S... haha... my weekend was um... packed like hell lol.... in the morning go for srp aptidute test.... a bit sane... i need to do 100 qns within 60 mins, which boils down to roughly 36 sec per qn... a bit sane.... then i went to simo training... where i was staring blankly at the whiteboard... firstly cause i was in a total brain shutdown state and i dunno what the prof was talking abt lol....

Then after simo went for lunch... then returned home... then just sat down, on my com for a while... then saw that i received a msg from zheng yu, telling me to be at hc by 2.15 if possible... then i shocked lol... dunno what was happening... and the time then was alrdy 3+... so i rushed to sch again..... and then go pose for the huangcheng photo... haha.... a bit sane.... then go home and pia homework...

then sunday was just as bad... haha... morning go for stj.... then seniors treat us to some damn nice food... haha... then we went to play truth or dare.... haha... seniors damn er lol... do stuff like kissing, act cute 1 to 10... etc... haha, a bit not tramatising...... then we went to play lan!!! haha.... very fun... we were bullying seniors =)... actually no la.... i think wasnt that bad lol... i didnt even play seriously at all..... haha.... but i keep getting the imba heros.... haha, first round got naix, second round got geomancer.... haha, but i random one... not choose on purpose =S......haha, at night watch singapore vs thailand match... haha, then pia homework again.....

Siao... according to the dao ju ppl, my amt of white hair is growing at an exponential rate =S... i think by j2 have to dye my hair black liao....

2007-02-03T08:30:00.000+08:00

haha..... i havent being blogging for a week liao.... haha.... this whole week very sad and rushed... haha.... everyday go huangcheng until very very late...... then need to rush homework during my breaks... a bit sane.... then every time have long break i go library to do work.... then once i see someone familiar from huagang or huangcheng.... i kena reminded of her..... then no mood to study liao..... so in the end a lot of hw anyhow do one.... like my chem tutorial i do on the bus lol...... a bit not meng...... lol.... somehow, i keep thinking of her...... then suddenly feel very sad.... haha........

Then friday i went back to huagang........ haha, then actually alrdy feeling quite down alrdy.... then look at the state of sec 2 and 3 juniors even more unhappy lol..... haha.... then still got yang scolding the exco.... sigh..... haha, next wk i guess my friday is taken up liao......

after that, went kap with props ppl lol.... then samuel was damn funny... he was trying to rmb all our names... then he rmbed br and william's name.... then br and william swopped places... and guess what? he called br william!!! lol... a bit sane..... haha... then quite high la... at least nvr think of the past..... then stupid br suddenly said, "why cant we go serene centre's mac? this place very sad leh" then i suddenly rmb a lot of stuff from the past....... stupid br lol.... he got sad memories dun need to say out right? then i kena reminded of those days.... haha.... then very sad... so in the end went to play stupid lame games with samuel.... haha..... playing games like back to the future, abcd, how many maa maa jumped over the wall, chocolate milk and etc.... haha, trying to forget abt the past.... maybe what br says is correct...... shldnt go kap nowadays...... haha.........

2007-01-29T19:51:00.000+08:00

haha.... suddenly my blogging frequency increased exponentially.... haha... nowadays no mood to do anything.... cant stop thinking abt meze and two of them.... haha..... no mood to mug..... haha, im very touched by my mortal... she gave me a love charm... haha.... tt at hs tmr =) haha....

First mop session today.... a bit stunned by the prof's teaching....... haha.... effectively bilingual.... then as usual.... no mood to do anything... end up doodling stuff on my mop notes.... haha....... then zk kena influenced by me, also start doodling... then he best lo... write until liddat... haha.....

O ya, our class ct session deciding what to sell at cny and how to paint class banner... then micheal kept coming up with crappy ideas... haha......

2007-01-28T20:38:00.000+08:00

haha... very sian now.... dunno what to do... my chem tutorial is lying on the table beside me but no mood to do it.... haha... just found out something very touching

quotes from a teachers' blog
"Have you ever come into a class feeling slightly excited and nervous? but those butterflies disappeared the moment you started talking about the subject that you are so passionate about? and then so enjoyed the lesson cos you shared the very things that made you fall in love with the subject with your students and witnessed the gleam of insight in their eyes and smiles that let you know you've managed to light that little spark of curiousity in them? Not to mention insightful questions that they asked that let you see your subject in an ever slightly different way?It is a rare occasion to come out of a lesson feeling this way...In some small way, I felt that today. In my first formal physics tutorial with 07S6K.A teacher's job can be so special. And satisfying."

feel very touched.... haha, maybe i shld become a teacher too.....

On a side note, still thinking abt meze........ although ***** **** and *** **** provides a great source of encouragement....

2007-01-26T20:40:00.000+08:00

haha... feeling kinda down now..... haha, had the weirdest dream yesterday night..... shant talk abt it here... haha...

haha, today also a little angry la.... i really hate it when ppl talk abt me and my stuff behind my back.... especially when they think i cant hear it but actually im hearing the whole convo.... actually not angry la... just not a nice feeling... haha....

shall continue the rest of my blog in chinese, haha, read on at ur own risk...

有时，我想问，一相情愿有何不好？爱一个人并不是要求回报，爱一个人是愿意为她付出一切。。。那么，一相情愿有何不好？没有得到回报的爱，难道就不是爱了吗？没有回报的爱就不伟大了吗？我认为，爱一个人，只要勇敢的去爱，一相情愿，两相情愿，有何不同？

但是，我心里很乱，勇气我还是有一点，但看到了她，勇气一瞬间就不见了。。。难到我一生就注定这样？

还是我想得太天真了？所谓“天定胜人”，“人算不如天算”。。。也许我应听天由命吧！

哈哈，不要再想这一切了。。。

sometimes.... maybe i shld just forget.....

2007-01-22T08:26:00.000+08:00

haha... haven blogged for like one week plus liao... actually wanted to blog on sat.... but then fell sick on friday night, then lied in bed for like two days and two nights.. vomitting and sleeping and drinking...... haha, fever at 38.5 degrees... a bit sane..... haha, but now much better liao... 37.2 degrees only..... haha, dunno what to blog abt now.... cant rmb what i wanted to write abt... haha... I miss meze... haha...

CAMPFIRE!!!! =) =)

2007-01-13T13:42:00.000+08:00

yay.... friday was damn fun..... so morning lectures... shant talk abt it much here.... haha, and finally received a letter from my angel.... haha, so touched..... (angel & mortal is something like senior write to junior thingy in hc, not as in her).... shall write back to her by monday =)...... haha.... then at 2pm went to preparation for campfire... faculty auditions..... haha... our class performance was nothing unique la.... but i seriously love our class flag... but as usual, got one more pro grp, dj,cm, william and zk's grp lol.... their flag also damn nice, but only a little nicer than ours.... haha..... anyway, overall, their flag won first!!!! GO ARTEMIS!!!!.... and i think our flag is better than the flag representing ares, who got second lol... but the ares flag also quite nice........ haha, rach, hj and yw's class leh...... then after auditions, we played square soccer with seniors... basically, cause it was raining, so we were playing 2v2 soccer in the small square, thats surrounded by seats... then the holes at each end is the goal.... the goal A BIT big ah.... then the girls play is the scariest one... they touch the ball will scream one lol..... then me and yl was laughing like hell.... laugh until cannot kick properly.... then we play play play.... then decided to play monkey..... so ok la... quite fun lo.... play play play... then i got bored.... so i became monkey and then everytime they catch the ball and throw, i will go RAWR!!! in their faces.... then got one seniors suddenly commented, eh, u monkey leh, not lion.... so when ann (i think) caught the ball, i went hoo-hoo-hoo-hoo-hoo-hoo in front of her, and scratch my arms... then ann's facial expression was hilarous lol... it was partially attempting to look for someone to throw the ball to, partially attempting to laugh, partially stunned and shocked, partially surprised..... haha, then when me and the other monkey(forgot who liao), saw her facial expression, we started laughing like hell..... then i laughed so hard that i fell down.... cause her facial expression is seriously funny -.-".......

then campfire was quite fun la......... got all the different class items........ then we had songs session!!!! damn fun... we were standing a circle with our senior class..... then we started doing can-can, then we changed to raising our hands up and waving....... then we became a human snake chain and charged through the crowds...... then we did butt shaking to the music.... then we sat down and raised our hands and wave.... but is wave up and down one... then when u wave up... u wave all the way up till u lie flat down..... then we had a balloon in the middle.. then we were kicking and hitting it abt..... then we did expansion and compression.... we held wach others shoulders.... then chiong as far back as possible... then we chiong in.... damn fun lol...... then we had mass dance... but forgot quite a lot of the steps lol...... only rmb one or two.... haha.....

then we went to meet seniors at street soccer court..... then guess what, they decided to zam us with water bombs.... but their aiming sucks!!! haha, sorry seniors, but its a fact.... i was dancing around in the street soccer court and sticking out my tongue at them.... then kept dodging their water bombs.... and only got hit three times lol.... first time is cause got one damn meng senior saw me, then he throw one at me.... then i dodged it and stick out my tongue at him.... then he meng chase me round the street soccer court.... then burst the water bomb on me head.... haha, second time is cause kena triple teamed, three bombs aimed at me.... tried to jump out of the way.... but a little too slow... the last bomb hit my leg.... haha, but leg only....... then last time is kena backstabbed by seniors, cause got seniors sneak behind me, then i was busy dodging the front bombs, then suddenly kena zam from the back........ haha.... quite fun lol.....

haha, but now must pia alrdy..... wk 2 only alrdy so much stuff to do liao.... dun think will blog so often liao =(

2007-01-11T20:31:00.000+08:00

haha.... official lessons begin today.... haha.... quite sane... but must blog abt tuesday and wednesday first what....

haha, tuesday was amazing race...... then we went to kap.... where we were suppose to finish a ice cream cone in 13,10,8,6,4,2 bites.... then me and yl in charge of the 2 bites one.... so yonglin licked off all the cream on top.... then i finished the cone in one bite 0_0.... shocked?... haha, actually i sort of cheated la.... i stuffed the bottom of the cone into my mouth..... then i squeezed the top and used my finger to press it down... a bit sane.... i think im swearing off ice cream for the rest of my life -.-".... lol....... then we went bukit timah hill and looked for 5 clues.... then go to a weird weird gwshire house..... haha.... think my grp did quite well for amazing race lol... then afternoon learn artemis dance......... haha, a bit EASY!!!!! lol.... stunned at the difficulty lol......

then wednesday, guess what we had? WAR GAMES!!!!!!!!!!!! then damn er lol.... art, at and are meng gangbang ap..... then the ap girls very violent...... they aim and KICK.... and they scratch.... and they form a human wall.... that guys dun dare to touch.... then still got starch pool!!!!! a pool of water with tons of flour..... haha... swimming in it damn fun..........

Anyway, during war games, ap got gangbanged like hell.... then they retailate.... send the damn meng ppl to attack at...... so i think at's shirt got wet..... then at damn er........ they break the alliance lol and attempted to attack us, art...... then we more meng.... we form human wall.... then direct them to are.... a bit sane lol.... haha, so at=bser.... haha, nvm la.... bs is ok one..... haha... but are also damn er lol..... cause the water point behind us.... so once are ppl fill up their water bombs they just throw at us... damn er lol....... so end up we got second..... at got first... but at least, we, as art, we won second with honour... we honoured our alliance.... and we didnt bs ppl haha.... then wed night go out with og to poolside... then meng talk crap from 5.30 to 9pm..... a bit fun........ then met quite a lot of juniors.... haha

then today morning is talk to fac committee... then photo taking..... then we attend the different lectures... haha, did something stupid during chem.... but i guess mr lee was quite nice abt it...... haha.... then went to paint flag....... our class flag rocks!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-01-08T21:52:00.000+08:00

haha..... haven blogged for three days liao.... friday was quite fun.... in the morning we listen to talk by teachers again..... haha, then afternoon, song and dance, then games!!!!!! yay!!! games we played slippery slope first.... damn fun lol.... especially when ur sliding down.... haha.... then after slippery slope we play the chicken game... very sian game, except got some ppl must blindfold.... then we played hit n roll.... a normal game, except with very sick conotations lol....

then sat and sun nothing much to talk abt.... then monday go to sch.... as usual, admin VERY efficient... so class list will only be out at 12noon.... so we playd hexathon in our og grps.... so first we played captain's ball with a water bomb..... and we won by not doing anything...... haha.... a bit sane.... then after that we played four-way tug of war... then damn funny... got 1 grp win by 2 extra pts... then the other 3 grps all tie at 2 pts.... so end up winner do forfeit.... damn funny lol..... then after that we played frisbee.....haha... from 0-4.... we meng attack until 7-4... lol........ then we played knights duel, where two ppl must carry another person using their hands, then the person on top must snatch off other ppl's hats..... so our team thrashed the other team lol.... two times complete win lol..... then we played street fighter.. which was kind of a retarded game... lol....

then we went for lunch in high sch... then go sit according to our classes..... my class a bit sane..... 50% prcs.... then got lyl, hbx.... almost all the males in my class i noe alrdy lol...... then we had meet the senior session...... our seniors a BIT sane..... hopefully, we WILL become like them.... first we had our seniors catwalk in front of us.... then we played squeezing the whole class on small pieces of newspaper.... then we had a SANE dancing session... and our seniors showed us the COOL dancing cheer for s6k!!!! yeah.... then lastly, being the KIND AND LOVING seniors that they are, they treated us to two bottles of COD LIVER OIL and some weird chemical.... which we WILLINGLY drank up....... then we went to dinner with seniors.... and they did the most sane thing ever.... cause kap kena flooded, so we took 156 all the way to clementi to eat at MACDONALDS........ then we talked crap with our seniors and met our great grand senior and our grand senior..... and seriously, our seniors are SANE.... haha.... but quite a fun butch la.... enjoy hanging out with them...........

haha, s6k rocks!!!!!! ARTEMIS rocks!!!!!!!! haha, 3 out of 4 of us in artemis, bo rui so sad!!!!!!!!!!!

2nd day of orientation

2007-01-04T19:49:00.000+08:00

haha.... another day of orientation... damn fun sia -.-" lol.... morning listen to a lot of crap talks again...... then afternoon dance session first....... a bit sane...... its like learn a damn lot of steps .... then the i/c say thats the first part only lol....... then after that sing song........ then cheers..... then STATION GAMES!!!!!!! YAY!!!! lol.... first game was quite boring lol..... just stuff ur face into flour and search for a sweet..... lol...... then second game more fun lol......... got four benches arranged in a W shape..... then put soapy water on all the benches.... then both teams each send one person, slide using hands only...... then until u CRASH into each other, then scissors paper stone, see who win... loser get off.... then slide again.. until CRASH into next person....... a bit not violent sia...... then chia jone sliding most meng one, do frog spawn then drag....... so one shot cover a lot of distance lol...... then after that we play blow up..... basically its just two balloons per person, then tie either to wrist or leg...... then try and burst the other team's one..... then the other team damn cheap lol....... all the balloons blow so small...... then we start..... and the girls are MORE violent than the boys lol...... its like if the girl just hold her hand close to her body, usually we dun go grab the balloon liao........ then damn er lol... got once a girl attacking, so she hold he hand damn far back.... so i jump in and go squeeze the balloon.... then when i try to go back, really not the girls dun care where they grab..... got arm grab arm, got shirt grab shirt.... then its like damn hard to get out lol..... then daryl is the worse lol..... u were suppose to use hand to squeeze balloons tied to hands.... then legs to step balloons tied to legs..... then daryl was trying to use his hand to squeeze my balloon tied to my leg lol....... haha.... damn er lol........

Btw, shanghai/suzhou trip ppl, video is here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fFzGbOOwmBA

damn cool lol........

o ya, got into STP triple science!!!! YAY!!!! haha... together with yong lin!!!!

haha, then on the bus, guess who i saw? dj and cm lol.....

First day of school

2007-01-03T20:20:00.000+08:00

haha..... today first day of sch.... a bit sane.... whole morning sit there and stone and listen to the teachers repeat what they said....... then later afternoon first play icebreakers.... then we were suppose to pass a pokka stick biscuit using our mouths... then we were suppose to bite off after we pass to the next person....then damn er la... the girls purposely sabo us lol... pass to us then purposely take a chao big bite.... lol...... then we played whacko.... damn fun lol..... it was like i was the one in the middle... then they call out a weird name.... then i dunno who lol... so i was damn frustrated, then i ask, who the hell is that..... then cow is the best lol... he point to the guy who he was suppose to help... then dun call any name.... I whack liao... then cow say, eh.... OOPS!!!

lol... then we did dancing!!!! damn er lol....... still got partner girl and dance.... then best, cow's partner taller than him... so when we was suppose to twirl our partner... cow had to tip toe lol... then still got one part where u r suppose to jump up and high 5 ur partner, his partner niao him lol.... say do u want me to dun jump?.... LOL

2006-12-31T15:06:00.000+08:00

Last post of 2006

Haha, this will be a damn long post, so read on at ur own risk =)

Reflection on 4 years in hc:

Haha, 4 yrs in hc past by so fast..... still rmb first day of sch in sec 1, came at 7.10... then all the sec 1s went to practise walking in...... so i was searching desperately for them lol.... then went to terraces and walk abt asking ppl lol.... a bit sane...... but in the end nothing happened lol.... just joined the sec 1s a bit later... haha... damn er la... sec 1 changed damn lot of teachers, first ongtm left, then chinese teacher changed twice, then charles left for pro-ed and we got kcheng instead... haha, half a year as secretary under the "leadership" of nicholas lol... haha, then yinghao got elected as chairman later... and replaced nicholas... haha... sec 1 had its great times, like the innocence that we has as sec 1s =) and its bad times.... haha, but i enjoyed being part of 1b'03... haha..... then sec 1 project our grp was quite meng la.... got all the way into finals... then got a C lol... a bit sane.... haha, that day before finals i worked until 3am lol, a bit sane, considering at that time my standard bedtime is 10 lol...... haha, sec 1 was a interesting year, an eye-opener.... o ya, sec 1, i got into chinese drama.... then we went to methodist girls sch to perform lol.... a bit sane, a bunch of guys acting 尿急 in front of a whole school of girls... yang might as well tell us to discard our faces..... but at least better than yinghan la, who was forced to strip until his underwear, but that was for another performance....... anyway, to make our performance more realistic, we meng drink water before the performance lol... then best part, during the performance, we didnt really feel 尿急, but on the bus back to school, we all became 尿急 lol.....

sec 2, all of the top of sec 1 aphelion classes got sorted into 2d.... haha, 2d was a unique class, with yc as chairman.... haha, a class where we all studied together, played together and worked hard together... haha.... and we pwned the sec 2 batch together =)...a class with 23 1.00s.. a bit sane... and the grading for that year was also quite screwed.... haha... but got to know quite a few interesting friends and did ok for that yr, dspite seriously slacking.... and got a er-hm teacher in charge, v sim lol........ Chinese drama for that yr was quite fun, first time working on such a large scale performance.. and under yang somemore... but we pulled through and it made all of us very bonded =)..... still have the damn emo video of us singing 当你孤单你会想起谁... haha... quite fun la... working with jian fa, wei long, etc... camping at drama centre... stoning at bus stops, meng pia-ing hw together, talking crap together, niao-ing liu hong ju... etc etc.... haha... miss those fun and innocent times... haha, sec 2, got the most severe case of ppb (post production blues) lol..... damn er la, walking home after school, then brain not thinking at all, feet just mechanically walk towards drama centre........

sec 3, 3a was fully pure smrp class... so not as meng as 3h or 3i... haha, but we still did our best and got the top few lol..... smrp was quite ok, our project made it into the finals and got a A... haha, we seriously just did a lot of lab tech work plus research only... lol, then 3a was a even more unique class, with douglas as chairman and jie yu as monitor.... lol.... still rmb the 3a/4a class logo and mosaic, different heights, different msgs, different personalities, but most importantly, one class =).... haha, i think we were quite bonded as a class la... but didnt feel as bonded as cd lol.... but still, quite glad that our class had that sort of spirit, dun think many other classes have that... haha.. we are a playful bunch, and yet we study hard... haha.... highlight of sec 3 life was the boarding school stay lol... we get to know each other better, mixed arnd, and interact...haha... sec 3, cd performed because of you... which, in my opinion now was a total disaster.... haha, and i blame yang........ but quite true la, a prc performance which was suppose to be done in march had to be dragged all the way until last wk of june.... then we were all dragged in to help by yang.... and thus, no cd performance that yr... quite disappointed la... but still, at least we didnt screw up because of you... haha...

sec 4, haha, final yr in hc(hs), did a lot of stuff that i would nvr imagine i would do... haha, last yr liao what, and i decided to change my mindset lol, i decided to live life to the fullest and with no regrets... haha, did some stuff with the rubik's cube.... haha, tried and failed =)... but at least i tried... haha, rmb got someone say before "there is no shame in failing unless no attempt is made", and at least i tried =)...haha, and then 4a was basically the same as 3a, but more fun, more niao, more meng, and more mug.... haha, an upsized version of 3a.... we had a lot of fun together, a lot of interesting memories, and haha, just fun..... although sometimes some of us go overboard, but we all noe no harm is meant... haha, feel lucky to be part of 4a =) made quite a few new frens in sec 4 lol... haha.... cd in sec 4 was the most eventful... haha.... became make up grp leader... haha, but didnt really do much... tried my best but in the end still needed to call wei long back for help..... haha, made a lot of frens in nycd, including her.... haha, we all worked very hard for this production and it was afterall, an success =), no thx to maggie mee.... xyxy was truely fun and forgettable...... haha, still rmb the times we hanged out at kap, we talked crap together, we had fun together.... including post production times... haha, we were indulging a lot lol..... haha, then i really studied for the exams, for once lol, and did quite well... haha, then participated in a lot of extra stuff.... such as ydsp, etc.... haha...

Milestones in 2006:
-became make-up grp leader =)
-cried (after production, first time since 2004[also after production]) (btw, it was partially or mostly tears of joy, haha)
-solved a rubik's cube, best time of 1min and 10 sec, haha, exactly 6 times slower than world record lol...
-attempted to form a group, but failed miserably.....
-made a lot of new friends =)
-met my special her =)
-confessed my feelings for her
-brought presents for her and other frens...
-first time giving talks at national libraries.... haha, and according to feedback, i was quite good =)
-first time initalising my own cip and service learning project lol....
-participated in 3 science quizzes and didnt get anything, haha
-got a silver for smo and got into SIMO senior team =)
-got into sqt
-did a lot of insane things, like going beserk T.T and almost getting killed by wei long....(partially thx to gewei)
-first time going to hainan and suzhou -got a new laptop

haha, and a lot of other stuff, but i think these are the main and most important ones.... still got a long way to go... haha

High School Dedications:

4A classmates:

Wei Xin: haha, thx for being a good person to slap =)... haha, and top in class for physics always, say nvr study but still so meng...haha

Chia Jone: haha, didnt noe u very well till this yr, haha, thx for being grp leader during the hainan trip and being a nice guy...

Sean: haha, thx for being, um, not straight? lol, but u r also quite a nice and funny guy...

Wei Cheng: haha, tell guy with bird nest.... nice knowing u =)....

Chang Jie: haha, thx for ur help with the chinese ace and other stuff... haha, and thx for being so
cool and pro enuf in dota.. haha =)

Wee Liang: haha, another funny guy... haha, thx for being a nice friend and letting me thrash u in nfs carbon... haha

Shi Wei: haha, dunno what to type here... haha, thx for being a nice guy and peacemaker....

Yuan Chang: um, haha, thx for being yc, a good friend, a great leader and a nice guy... haha, being with u in shanghai/suzhou was fun... and thx for sitting beside me in class, well, we had a gap between us but its still beside lol....

Woan Keng: haha, captain underpants!!!! anyway, thx for sitting beside me and being such a great fren and joker, would really miss all ur crappy jokes and replies to tansc lol....

Zhi Kai: thx for being black!!!!!! haha, u r a great friend and a good companion while taking 157 home.... also, thx for being my roomie when we went to shanghai/suzhou lol.... it was great having u as a fren =)

Zheng Xiang: haha, mr nobody sia... haha, ur another great pal and nice guy to be with... haha, thx for being a good person to talk to.... haha

Douglas: um, haha, thx for being class chairman for 2 yrs... although we always joke abt u a lot, u r still a great chairman =)

Nigel: haha, another cool guy sia... haha, thx for being a nice fren and intertext classmate....

Zhi Guang: haha, co chairman sia.... cool and interesting guy.... haha, thx for bringing me into sqt and thx for being such a great friend and joker...

Chin Kiat: um, thx for being chinky =) and being a nice person to niao =)...

Chen Feng: haha, another blackie =)... haha, dunno u very well, but still, ur a nice guy and good person to use as referrence when playing bridge...

Jie Yu: haha, guy with the hairy legs.... haha, thx for being class moniter for one year and a great class joker...

Samuel: haha, thx for being a nice guy to slap and steal hp from to play games.... haha, and a nice person to bully but still a great fren =)

Zhi Yi: haha, pro mugger sia.... haha, thx for being a nice fren and a good bus riding company... haha

Calvin: haha, another Mr. nice guy... mr young gentleman/scientist sia, pro sia... haha, thx for being class moniter =).

Chong Chen: haha, thx for being such a great fren and gunz companion..... i know life now isnt that good for u, but hang on, kz? haha, cheer up and thx for being one of the best frens i have...

Hun Sheng: haha, pro mugger also, haha, thx for being tablemate for um, 1 to 2 mths lol.....

Wei Yang: haha, maths pro sia, SIMO senior team... haha, thx for being a great fren and a nice guy.....especially for doing project with me...

Brandon: haha, the guy that zk's dog like the most.... haha, glad to have u as a fren and classmate...

Kang Jie: haha, classmate for 4 yrs straight.... and sitting beside each other for 3 yrs... haha, thx for being such a great fren...

Carlos: haha, thx for being such a nice guy and really thx for that time when u really listen to me and offered ur views when i feeling very confused abt a lot of stuff....

Huagang/Nycd:

Augustin: haha, asm sia, and now vice-chairman.... haha, thx for being a make up junior and helping out.... but most importantly, thx for being named augustin, so i dun have to type bo rui's name first.

Bo rui: haha, er ge sia, tallest of us all... lol... thx for being such a cold person with such lame jokes... haha, and rmb the times we had at kap, especially ur sweet smses to huijun =)

Chen Meng & Dian Jun: haha, directors and a sweet couple..... haha, thx for putting in so much effort into the combined show.... all ur efforts paied off right?

Ewe: haha, of cos this dedication wont be posted here =)

Felicia: haha, another asm, plus sec 2 only, and now nycd secretary sia, pro lo... haha, thx for ur note =) it was nice working with u... haha

Ge wei: haha, chairman sia, haha, plus tech director, so pro.... haha, thx for being a great fren and a even better chairman... o ya, and rmb to treasure ur time playing piano under the moon.

Hong Ye: haha, red leaf, zhong wu sia, and creative grp leader sia... haha... thx for being such a good fren and junior....

Hui Jun: haha, er sao, haha, thx for being such a good audience, always laughing at our jokes!!! TOMATOES!!!!!!!!!!!! haha, thx for beng such a great fren....

Jason Boey:haha, my successor sai.... and frozen king summore, get both mine and br's positions... haha, so pro.... thx for being a good junior and a great friend.... haha, thx for ur present, its beside me right now lol...

Jason Lim:haha, my ex-successor lol..... must be a good senior next yr k? haha, thx for being a great junior and a nice fren, esp thx for ur present... my diary next yr lol

Jiarern: haha, my niece sia, haa, must treat ur dad, aka zheng hang, well hor... haha, jiayou for next yr....haha thx for being such a nice fren and junior... haha

Kian yang: haha, lagger...... lol, dun worry la, got jasmine liao wont lag liao... haha, thx for being such a zai props leader and treasurer.... just returning of money a bit early......

Min Hua: haha, cutest sec 2 junior ever... also my successor's successor lol... haha, thx for being such a great and cute junior...

Minyang: haha, next chairman sia, so pro.... haha, jiayou and thx for being such a good junior!!!!

Wei Long: haha, pro pro make up senior, thx for saving me by coming back lol, especially thx for helping with the make up... haha, hope that one day can become as pro as u....

Wen Wei: haha, ma secretary lol..... and sounds grp leader also... haha, thx for being such a great fren and buddy

William: haha, si di, lol, thx for being william and providing all the links.... hahaha... although u pon a lot during the hols, still thx for helping out lol.... haha, thx for being such a good brother

Xian You: haha, cute cute sec 4, jump grade somemore, so zai, haha, thx for been so zai with tracks and being a great fren....

Ying Han: haha, my predecessor as grp leader.... haha, but now even more zai, vice chair sia... haha, thx for all ur concern towards makeup and accompanying me to make up shop..

Zheng Hang: haha, last as always..... lol, da ge.... must faster find a da sao for me soon ah.....but u also very pro, actor, scriptwriter, dad... lol... a bit meng only...... haha... thx for all u've done... haha

and everyone else who has helped out in 1507 xyxy in one way or another: thx for making it a success =)

Others:
Chao Tong: haha, thx for being such a great fren and a slotty person sia..... and thx for leading our CHAOS grp... haha, and im glad to have known u =)
Chyan Wen: haha, little misss innocent =).... it was fun polluting u and niao-ing u and sean.... haha.... and ur love triangle or isst square liao, is very interesting =)...
Dennis: haha, primary school classmates, but still such great frens =) haha, hao xiong di =)
Genievieve: haha, lights pro sia... dao da jie summore.... haha, nice to have known u and thx for being such a great person to talk to

Haha, still got a lot of ppl not mentioned here, so if u're not mentioned here doesnt mean i dun like u or anything lol... just that this post a bit short lol....... haha, but thx everyone who has being a fren, esp the sec 4 peeps who went to shanghai/suzhou, for making it such an unforgettable trip... rmb VIH negative !!! haha....

haha, thats all for dedications...
now blog abt two days before and yesterday......
haha, two days ago, me,zk,br,william and jlo went cineleisure to watch death note 2... haha, misa misa chao cute lol..... then we went to eat lunch, then go arcade play play play... play liao go kino... then go vivo, then go walk walk walk then go eat icecream, then go giant watch kope free drinks lol....

then yesterday class gathering.... in the morning, me, wee liang and brandon went zk's hse.... the play gta... after that go play ps2 pinball... then play nfs carbon.. then gundam and winning eleven.... then go doug's hse play doa... lol... then went up to play bridge lol..... damn funny... its like whoever partners yu guang sure lose one.... its like yu guang had a had with only 3 non-picture cards.... lol, but he still lost lol... a bit sane... then its like bridge i won 3 games in a row... then suddenly i partner yu guang then lose lol....... a bit fun ah...... then we go play mahjong... jianan the most pro, keep blaming his seat lol... say his seat bad luck lol.... then watch football match.... man u zibei la... offside score... referee bias lol.... but reading equalised!!!!!!!!! lol.... GO READING!!! haha, dunno the results lol......

haha, thats all lol....i shall start blogging tmr to start off the new year....

haha, 53 more mins to new year!!!
HAPPY NEW YEAR PPL!!!!

Back from china again

2006-12-25T09:12:00.000+08:00

haha..... back from china again.....haha, this time go there to visit my fathers' relatives, so nothing much to blog abt.....haha..... and i just realised i have abt 50 cousins/nephews/nieces... and i only know abt 12?? haha...... sane sia...............then my fathers' family also very complicated...... haha...... a lot of family quarrels......but i like my cousins a lot =).........

then at the airport got this damn idiotic family........ its like there were 3 counters for check in... then dunno y only 2 queues, like no1 dare queue at the last counter..... so my family went to queue at that counter..... then the counters start opening... somehow, our counter was the first to open... so we went up lol... then the lady from the queue beside us damn what lol.... she just pushed her trolley in front of us and approach our counter, cause theres a space between the queue tape and the counter itself.... then my mum jsut walked round her trolley and went to the counter before her...... then the lady damn pissed,so she said,(in chinese) "oi, i was here first" then my mother very polite, say, "ya, u were first queueing for that counter, but i was first queueing for this counter"... then the lady damn angry, so she was like "u stand there called queueing ah?".... then i was like damn pissed off lol, if my parents wont there, i would have said something like, "o, so u dun queue by standing right? u queue by sitting down isst?".... but my mum very good natured, so she just said yes and told her that her counter also open liao...... then so far still ok la, but then the guy behind her, i think is her father, is the best lol.... cause my mother's chinese a bit thrash the lady's chinese, so he assumed we dunno english.... then he was saying very loudly, "so this is called what they call ugly singaporeans..." then still haven end, " what sort of people are they letting into singapore nowadays?" and still not done, "this sort of low quality ppl also can become singapore citizens ah?".. then i was damn tempted to reply all his qns lol, to the first one, "yup, taht lady is what we call ugly singaporean,", to the second one, "its not what sort of ppl sg is letting in, its how come sg's system will have ppl like u?" and to the third one, "if we were low quality, i doubt any country will even grant u citizenship"... but then cause my parents there so i only smile lol......... damn pissed off lol, its like everyone was staring at the two of them, cause it was like so obvious the two of them were in the wrong, then the lady refuse to let us push our trolley to the check in counter... then my dad, very nice guy also, "can u please let us pass?", then the lady just glare at us...... so until then the lady at the check-in counter also damn pissed off liao, so told the lady to let us pass...... then the lady still glare at us....

its like wtf la, nvr met before such unreasonable ppl, they think they sg born very good isst? we chinese pro mean we cannot speak english ah? then best one, they themselves cmi, then call others cmi....... damn unreasonable lol, its like we smart, we rmb this counter also can check in, u dumb what, dunno this counter can check in, my fault ah? i didnt break any rules or cut any queues, i just rmb a little more than u and use it to my advantage, cannot ah?

then the guy best, sitting two rows behind us on the plane, then he was loudly boasting abt sg....... that even the ppl sitting beside him was laughing at him.... and its like the things he boast abt is damn dumb lol... its like he was boasting how on sg flights, when the plane lands, no1 will take off safety belt until the sign turns off, cause the flight stewardess wont allow........ dots...... so? is that something to be proud of? just cause sg flights have stricter rules very liao bu qi ah?

haha... nvr knew there were such irritating singaporeans..... kinda destroy the ok image i have for singapore... haha..... i mean, abt the check in counter, its only 1 min difference, then u have to make such a big deal, especially when its ur own prob, not ours.... its like making a mountain out of a molehill... i mean, if u were rushing for ur flight and the others counters all have to wait very long, and u ask politely, i would have let u...... but then... its only 1 min!!! or maybe even less...... sigh...... haha, both pissed off and disappointed =(

but, to end this post on a happy note, MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

o ya, and the quote of the day from cw, "yc doesnt look like the type that flirts" LOL

2006-12-13T21:07:00.000+08:00

haha... today damn fun lol.... go jec, eat lunch... then go arcade play daytona...... then play time crisis...... haha, a bit sian la....... then we went to science center kinetic gardens..... damn fun lol...... then me and zk was walking through triangles and chairs... haha, we have shadowcat's ability liao...... then we go play giant checkers!!! damn fun sia, team zk&hp thrashed team ace&jlo... haha..... then we go eat ice-cream!!!!!! fun!!!!! then we went back and played time crisis again... then go home... haha........ too bad she didnt come =(

haha.. going back to china tomorrow...... coming back only on 25th... aw.. haha

2006-12-12T15:54:00.000+08:00

Day 5: (continue from previous post)
then we went to the fuzhou road... then we bought the damn cool eggs lol, shatter alrdy can go back one.... then we went to shanghai museum.... quite boring la...... then was searching through thousands of stamps to look for the bird and insect font.... FUN SIA....... look until sian diao..... then finally found it..... after that, we went to the info counter, then i took out a info slip.. and guess what i saw... THE PAPER SHOWED THE BIRD AND INSECT FONT... meaning i wasted like 1 hr staring at useless stamps haha......... then for the last qn, we were suppose to find the boat used to send off the dead.... then stumped diao.... then we heard that bravo finished alrdy, so we said ask kecw to ask them.... then kecw was like dun wan la.... very shy..... then suddenly see jonathan waving his arms at her.... so we went down..... then jonathan was like bursting to tell her the ans lol..... a bit sane..... then we were stoning at the cafe..... then the trainer was saying later we are going duo lun lu, then u guys can go make stamps with ur name.... then kecw was going, eh, i also want to make one..... then claudine went, oooo, then will the surname be Lai or Foo.... then the whole table burst out laughing laughing laughing..... then we went to duo lun lu.... quite sian la..... only thing i bought was a ball, with a name written inside, then the rest was like rushing off, so they paid me and ask me to help them collect their balls..... then i was loaded with balls lol....... then after that we went to iProud for company visit..... quite fun la..... then go for dinner... it was 6 person per table, so jr, bryan, wei sheng, nicholas and kecw and sean sat together at one table.. then damn funny lol, jr keep niaoing sean and kecw.... then the four of them eat damn fast.. then finish liao all leave the table, only left sean and kecw.... then keek was damn hilarous lol.... she asked jr:"do u want to fail ur physics next yr?", then jr said no, then she said, "then go back and sit down"..... then the whole sec 4 table burst out laughing....... then we return to hotel and went to yh's rm to talk crap again...... then sean started the er part lol, its like we were having a perfectly innocent convo, then sean went to ask kecw, "where's ur hole?" then the whole rm burst out laughing lol...... only pure and innocent kecw didnt get the joke -.-"....... then after kecw left, weisheng was talking abt how big chest and big butt makes a girl desirable.... then yh was going, no la, must be proportional to the body... then sean went, "ya, just like kecw"....... then everyone went omg........... so sweet haha...... then jr gave a damn good example of how a big chest and big butt doesnt make a girl desirable by mentioning ****yp. lol, then wei sheng talked abt girls having chest hair -.-"..... a bit er ah....... then sean immediately jumped to kecw defense..... wah......

Day 6:
so in the morning we went to decathlon... where they were suppose to sell all the different sports equipment.. but wahlao, they dun sell single-sided table tennis bats lol........ so damn sian.. walk abt slowly, then guess who i bumped into? sean and kecw! so sweet...... then dunno why suddenly my throat very ichy, maybe eat to much sugar laio, so had to cough.... then sean and kecw both stare at me -.-"... scary sia..... then we went to xujiahui... quite sian la, all the buildings look very singapore-ish.. then we had lunch at pizzahut..... a bit CHEAP.... we spent like 300 rmb for 6 ppl... ok la, its cheap for sg standards, but still very ex leh...... o ya.... then at deca jr damn what lol, suddenly point out starbucks to me, noeing that i ahvent had a decent cup of coffee since i return to china.... then keep tempting me, until i cannot bear it liao.. must drink starbucks...... then after that we walk abt...... then we see a man on top of a christmas tree..... then we were like stunned, is that decor or a real man..... then bryan went, no la, its a real man doing the tree..... then we all burst out laughing........ only innocent kecw was like huh?.... then jr decided to tell her whats going on lol.... then the rest went to mo gan shan where they see all the damn cool art works.... but then unfortunately, i had to go eat dinner with my relatives.... but very long time nvr see my grandparents liao..... kinda miss them......... then at debrief, me and zk damn sane...... we wear ankle weights and only single layer... then have to go out and walk in the cold...... so we decide to chiong..... a bit sane, chiong in the cold and with ankle weights.... lol..... then we wanted to go yh's rm talk crap.. but then while we were doing our journal, both me and zk fell asleep lol...... then weisheng and jr had a damn fun time trashing yh's rm.......

Day 7:
in the morning, we went to yuyuan bazaar... where i meng shop for stuff to give family and frens..... then jr was busy polluting kecw..... lol... a bit meng only...... then we went to scavenger hunt.... quite boring la....... just talk a lot of crap along the way...... then we like reached the place 1 and a half hour early, then shop for fun..... the qns damn easy lol, its like once i receive the paper, i noe where to go liao....... then we very sane.... we were eating ice cream out in the cold.... a bit sane ppl.... then on the bus damn fun lol, we were singing all the different songs.... then we were singing xiao wei, except we replace xiao wei with all the teachers' names... then damn er lol........ its like, we were singing: "sheng lao shi, ni ke zi dao wo ai ni?" a bit gay eh..... then when we were singing for katheleen, weisheng was damn niao lol, we were singing, "wo yao dai ni fei dao tian san qu" then he said,"too heavy la"......... a bit niao only........ then sean was asking us to sing xiao wei for kecw, his arguement:"we sang for all the females on the bus except her lol...." then we were like damn shocked lol....... then we said 10 rmb per voice... so 11 of us is 110 rmb.... then he was like cannot la, everyone brothers leh, count money hurt feeling....... then we were like ok lol, 100 rmb, we knock off the 10 rmb... then we were all quoting all the different store-owners' bargaining phrases, like its the lowest price alrdy, where can u find such good quality voices for such a cheap price, we sell any lower we lose money liao...... damn funny lol..... then at night we go present our business plan, then everyone smoke like siao...... then i a bit sane, present halfway blackout...... haha, in the end bravo won........ haha....

Day 8:
we went to the postal office, a bit sane, then got super glue stuck to us..... but i think more like epoxy liao la..... then we went to the rooftop........ a bit HOT...... then daryl was taking pic with claudine was taking pic... then katheleen crash their pic...... then daryl turned arnd and said f u.... then saw it was katheleen... then he was like omg.... sorry..... then we went to pearl tower... ok la, shop for a while, talkkok, singsong and eat steamboat...... haha...... then we went to airport, then we were asking sean if he want to sit beside kecw... then he was like, ok lo, i need to use her laptop anyway....... LOL, then we were totally stunned......... then we were playing cards on the plane......... quite fun la...... then at the airport, we were all trying to make kecw and sean hug.... then they both too shy........ haha

Suzhou-Shanghai trip (Part 2)

2006-12-11T15:38:00.000+08:00

Day 3:
went to ping jiang lu first, then see the houses by the river, kinda remind me of my old house lol.... then we went to kun qu museum, where we look at their different instruments and watch them perform... kinda cool la..... so we walk abt......... then we went to look at the silk factory... where we were led abt by a EXTREMELY experienced tour guide, its like she lead us to a point, then only 5 ppl there, then she start talking, then when the last few reach, she already started walking to the next destination, plus she speak until so soft...... after that we sat thru a fashion show, with damn noob models you mei you..... its like they all walk halfway out then turn back already....... then we went for lunch... then go shan tang jie, quite nice la, then bought quite a cool toy, which squeaks when u pull the string..... then somehow, two sec 1s amazingly got lost from their grp and miracously found my grp and attached themselves one to each side of kecw... a bit fun sia.... then its like the two sec 1s later disappeared... then i ran into darryl, then i asked him did he see his two sec 1s.. then cow damn straightforward lol, point to kecw, then say, i thought they shld be with her? then we were anyhow walking walking walking, and we got lost in the back alleys... then accidentally walked into someone else's house..... LOL... then we went to guan qian jie, and we were taking the tram from on end of the street to the other... then we were walking abt....... crapping and shopping.... bought a magnet and lost it on the bus... hahaha.... then we went to hao ren si chuan resturant to have dinner...... then we went back to hotel... after that we went out walking and shopping.. then on the way we were crossing the road, then see this guy and girl talking at the other street... then yc and yh were happily imagining what their convo is like...... then the guy went into a store, and yc said, i bet he go and buy ******.... then we were camping outside the hotel and watching them.... then yh suddenly shouted, OMG, he touched her breasts........ -.-".... then we went back to our rm.... then at 10th floor, we exited, only sean left inside the lift, cause he staying at 12th floor... then yh said, doesnt kecw stay at 1207? then me and zk went, omg, we live at 1007.... then we ask sean to come our rm and climb up two stories and go knock on her window.... so he came out of the lift laughing lol.... then we went to yh's rm to crap again...... damn er la.... then sean was crapping abt long term investments, what must date a young young girl with potential to grow..... so next time when she grow up and become ur wife, everyone would chase after her, but then cause u dated her first, shes ur property....... then we were like...... STUNNED... sec 1 alrdy such a long term planner..... omg.... haha.... damn er la.......

Day 4:
in the morning we went to sip, kinda sian la........ sit there and stone.... then we went to the edge of dunno what lake, then yh and zk were busy acting gay, while kecw and sean were talking sweet nothings behind them..... haha..... so sweet... later get diabetes...... then yh damn bad lol, want to set kecw and sean up...... then we take bus to shanghai...... stone abt in the bus and sleep..... then we went to the side of the huangpu river and walk abt.... then went to nanjing dong lu...... where we walk around shopping.... and jr was busy polluting kecw's mind...... lmao......then our hotel rm damn zhai lol, open the window then see a BLANK wall.... then at night we went to yh's rm again and crap again..... then we bought 92 packs of wang wang....and yh was damn cute lol, its like kecw ask us huh, u guys call teachers by their names ah? then yh said, "yes, just like we call ur mum....... KEEK!", damn funny lol, then kecw went omg..... and almost called for her mum lol.... then we made up a new name for her lol KECW.... -.-".. then kecw brought her tablet pc to sean's rm...... then sean kept using the com..... then yh went, eh sean dun liddat leh, must let kecw go back to her rm, u must let go when its time to let go....

Day 5:
in the morning went their urban planning center... then nic smartly decided to tell kecw all abt her, sean and nic, then kecw was like, omg, i nvr knew it was that serious... etc etc..... then we were asking like who do u prefer, sean or jon? then we were happily talking crap and taking neoprints..... then we went to china's raffles city... VERY different from singapore sia......

haha, shall continue tmr.....

Suzhou-Shanghai trip (Part 1)

2006-12-10T21:41:00.000+08:00

haha..... the most fun filled week i had lol........... very eventful weekend

Day 1:
fly to shanghai, then bus to suzhou........ ok day la...... except that we played DOA at airport, then i meng thrash zk.... haha.... then the hotel rm damn zhai la............. but since its 12+ when we reached the hotel, it shld be classified under day 2... lol

Day 2:
ya, the hotel rm damn zhai lol... big and comfy, only thing is its a bit dark, cause i sleeping with zk lol...... then we eat breakfast at hotel, then go the museum, quite nice la, made by a guy called i. m. pei. lol, i am pei, which means me lol... nvm, that was random... then lunch, forget what we eat liao lol, but quite ok la, the whole sec 4 batch spam one table... then yuanchang went toilet, then he was like how come dun have the pee thingy one, only got a fountain... so we all go spam toilet... then its like the sort of old toilet la, where u pee onto the glass and water washes it down, then we were like, where got fountain, its waterfall la, yc english zibei lol, then someone went, but if got ppl then got fountain liao what.... then we demo a 10 jet musical fountain lol........ a bit meng only, then we were laughing like hell........ haha.... then we went to ask sim how tall his fountain is.... then we said, did it hit the ceiling? LMAO.... then afternoon go lingering garden play murder mystery lol...... then it was like damn easy lol... we were given 1.5 hr to try to solve it, but we solved it in under 10 mins lol..... the rest of the time we were walking abt and stoning..........o ya, at the garden, a certain person got lost from his group, and accidentally attached to my grp..... then we went to shi lu.... then walk abt, here, there, everywhere.......... then we bought food and drinks, and party at yinghao's room..... then watch sg team get thrashed by china team in tt..... and hear yh screaming like mad........ a bit sane ppl..........

lol, shall continue tmr... haha

Part 1 (pissed off part)

2006-12-10T21:30:00.000+08:00

k... shall blog abt all the stuff that pissed me off first, then later blog the happy stuff... so end up ill rmb more of the happy stuff =) haha.....

firstly, ydsp, our project wanted to go into ssef, then 4 ppl only 3 can go, so in the end, i didnt get in, because i wasnt free during dec to pia the project.... k, fine, i accept that, so i nvr complain, then this whole week that i went shanghai... they were SLACKING for the whole week... like wtf, i did so much work at the start, then i get kicked out cause u ppl claimed that the 2.5 weels that im gone, u guys would do a freaking lot of work.... then what happens? 1 week pass by and what did u guys do? NOTHING... a BIG FAT NOTHING.......

and then i get what sort of **** team, no insult intended to my team members except one, but then we were like, its our last sch trip so we sec 4 batch wanted to go together... then i end up as the ONLY sec 4 in my grp... plus i have to babysit a certain idiot.... aiya, but nvm, my other team members were quite ok....

2006-11-19T08:16:00.000+08:00

lol.... again... i spent the whole week at ntu working on the railgun.... but now very discouraged..... actually should be able to finish quite soon... then the steam generator leaked, the compressor motor blew, the injector is bent and the rails refuse to stick to the acrylic..... lol... so basically everything is screwed up.... haha.... so more work to do!!!!!!

lol, for the next part of my post, the names and certain parts shall be encoded, for my own safety haha.... its a translation cipher, passkey is three letter her, first to second.... haha, try to figure this out =)

ya, so after working until something like 7+ on friday, me, ksfvjs, tgpmsf and dwnaf went to eat at kfc.... then we were eating eating eating , until i suddenly realised that i was five dollars short lol (i found it in my other jeans' pocket btw)... so i was thinking thinking thinking.... then tgpmsf been the EXTREMELY helpful friend that he was, kept trying to give me HELPFUL suggestions on where the money went... then he suddenly went " u went to buy ugfvge ah?" even though ksfvjs was there -.-".... then ksfvjs went, huh? ugfvge got cost so much meh? then they started discussing kauc details abt ugfvge, such as whats the shiny shiny things inside, whats the difference between chocolate and strawberry flavoured one, how when its blown up, its looks like a balloon... etc etc.... then ksfvjs went "Im just curious but how do m hml al gf?" which made everyone go into hysteric laughter.... ....

then we went to gv to watch casino royale..........the plot seriously suck and so does the actor... the old one, pierce brownski or something, was so much better, plus this time no cool gadgets.... only got a nice car... which he crashed the first time he drove it... o ya, i just realised that the car COULDNT have crashed as it did in the movie..... unless of cos, he didnt take pass his driving test..... the only interesting part was the torture scene, then u hear all the guys in the cinema go ooooooo or ouch.... feeling sympathy pain... haha...... anyway, so i was sitting in the cinema, beside ksfvjs, then halfway through the movie, while i was semi-asleep, i suddenly thought abt qaowa, and how good it would be for us to be like tgjma and zmabmf watching vwslzfglw.... how much more fun that would be.... and how much i miss qaowa... ya, and then no mood to watch the movie liao... ALL THE MOVIE'S fault la...... cause of the sulky plot so couldnt capture my attention... then make my attention wavier like that.......

a kwsddq kwsddq eakk zwj..... ak daxw kwsddq kg ujmwd?

2006-11-13T21:23:00.000+08:00

突然想起一句话∶

爱一个人需极大的勇气，
而忘记一个人需极大的恒心。

那么，若一个人没有勇气，而又没有恒心，他不是注定一生心痛吗？

好久好久了，等了那么久，但还是要等下去吗？

49 days more..... is it only fools that wait? or is it the true winners that wait?

hands hurting like hell (forgive any typos XD)

2006-11-08T21:53:00.000+08:00

sian... back from attachment again..... damn fun sia.... today we spent the whole afternoon STRIPPING in the lab.... of course stripping wires la.... then the stupid wire has a thick layer of solid wax, i think shld be something like candle wax, just harder and without the air spaces, then its like they wind the wires, then they pour the wax over it... so its like the wax is STUCK to the wires... then knn lol, we were using penknifes to strip the wires, its like we were slicing over layer by layer... and guess what, we need 48 long wires and 5 short wires, so we had to strip like 106 ends.... what the hell lol.... until now we only finished the 5 short wires and 23.5 long ones..... efficient sia.... then strip until our hands hurt like hell... plus in the morning still saw this, saw that, pull this, pull that PLUS we still had to braid the wires... now my fingers just bend alrdy hurt lol.......fun sia.....

o ya, yesterday even more fun.... we were cutting rods using the lave machine.....then guy 2 damn smart sia, we need rods 9.2cm thick... then everytime he cut until 8.something one.... the girl even more pro.... after cutting the rod, the outside of the rod is suppose to be smooth... then hers ah, cut liao got 1 line 1 line one....

interesting quotes:

guy: YES!!! i finally finished stripping the fourth time....
girl: wahlao, so fast, can help me strip?

guy 2: how did you know blah blah blah
girl: IMCB (stands for institute of molecular & cell biology)
guy 2: lol.... wah, first time so straightforward sia, a girl claim she is cb....
girl: ...

girl: hey, you left your rod on the floor...
guy 1: oops....
guy 2: huh? ur rod can detach one ah? so pro....

girl: see, at least today you guys learnt how to braid....
guy 2: lol, then next time can braid our legs....
guy 3: but then you need 3 legs to braid what....
guy 2: you should have 3 legs what......

guy 1: eh, how many wires have you stripped already?
guy 3: o, we stripping together... each person help the other strip 50, 50 lol....

obviously, guy 2 is the sicko one......

SLACK holidays

2006-11-07T19:30:00.000+08:00

lol..... today is the sixth day i and my project mates have been working on the railgun!!!~~~ yay!!! and after 6 days of hard work, we finaly managed to shoot a projectile through the rails and acclerate by quite a lot..... I shall happily ignore the fact that the caps discharged roughly 10^6 times faster than our calculations or that the projectile was toasted..... lol... but quite good liao la..... then last week tuesday to thursday..... almost everyday is me and ** **** and ******..... then for some reason i always feel damn bright =)..... only today not that bright la, cause got 3 more ppl..... lol, working on electrodynamics is turning me into a conductor..... and our rails rock lol, it sparks at 10kV.... muhahahahahaha.....

sian, this hols damn chaotic lol, eveyday 8am leave home, then 6.30 to 7+ then reach home..... SLACK sia..... then go attachment become so bright....

sigh... i think most ppl are 生在福中不知福.... including myself lol.... last time i hols nothing to do, then everyday want to find something meningful to do.... then now hols i a lot of things to do, then everyday want to find time to slack.....

EOY ranting =) =) =)

2006-10-28T07:10:00.000+08:00

Just realised my holiday schedule is damn screwed as compared to other peeps one... i have like a attachment that i have to go at least twice a week, then three weeks in china, then need to tidy up my bedroom and study a lot of stuff that i've neglected during the exams......

lol.... and realised my blog very stagnant... roughly an average of 2 posts per month.... I guess the reason is i can only post when i have the mood to blog and my parents arent at home.... so very hard la........

Anyway, this week chao fun lol.... monday morning.... whole day chinese lesson, meng study chinese when teacher in class..... once she walk out, everyone starts slacking lol..... then at nite is grad nite.... ya, first time see everyone so well-dressed up lol..... despite not liking some of my classmates, i realised we are still 4A!!!!! we are a class!!!! Even though we might not be as mugger as 4H, we might not like everyone in the class, we are still a CLASS!!!! and we spent 2 years together.... really gonna miss everyone in the class, some less than others, but still, everyone. At the end, I really felt like crying.... but only teared, i dunno why, but I just didnt want to cry there and then.... i was like struggling to hold back tears..... mebbe cause i cried too many times this yr -.-"......

then tuesday is holiday..... so slack slack slack... and slack some more lol.... wednesday, slack again.... thursday most chaotic lol.... 8-9.20 listen to joseph sim's tips on how to do well in chinese..... then went to see tansc to collect entry proof.... then went to see seck to collect cca report and report book..... and the admin shortchanged me by a lot..... like for sqt, they only give me 2 for vjc science quiz, then chaos and eureka not included inside.... then still got a lot of other stuff... so I could have gotten a A1 lol, but then aiya, nvm la.... report book, surprisingly, i managed to get a 1.12.... didnt meet my target of 1.00 but still, at least better than my estimate of 1.25....... after that went to science hub for the research@ydsp welcome..... damn sian lol... sit there and listen to the ppl talk talk talk talk talk talk...... o well, at least we got 300 dollars pocket money for the research =)...... then eat lunch... then went to ntu to do the research project... fun sia... we get to play with capicitators with ratings of 10kV.... then after that rush to mariott hotel for prize presentation for amc.... lalalalalalala.... again, sit there and listen to ppl talk talk talk talk talk.....

then friday, went for the aerodynamics lecture, go to sp, walk here, look at this, walk there, look at that.... then go to nus high.... plane modelling competition... but smartly, our grp have no plane, so we had to make our plane within 30 mins, the same 30 mins other ppl used to fine tune their plane... so in the end got thrashed lol.... but ok la... quite fun la..............

now for my rantings =).... i realised very few ppl really noe what sort of person i am lol..... its like quite a few of my frens all think of me as a mugger... but the fact is im not a mugger..... ya, i do study for the exams, but its like, i wont be studying until dun do anything else one.... Or like when i say i play dota, ppl always say, aiya, u sure lose to me one, cause they all think i mug too much, then nvr play at all.... then in the end i still thrash them -.-".... and then when i say i can draw, everyone would stare at me, shocked -.-" its like no-one besides me noe all the different aspects of my life.... its like my friends in school only know what i do in school, my friends in my art lesson, only know what my art skills are like, then my online frens only know my gaming skill level.... etc..... actually, i dun think its my frens' fault, its like i would prefer it if they dunno my other sides.... its like neptune and pluto share part of a same orbit.... but then it would be disastarous if they moved onto the same orbit at the same time.... perhaps, even i myself dunno what sort of person i am.... i feel that life nowadays is so complicated, so many facades so many illusions..... why cant secondary school life be as simple as primary school... where there's no backstabbing, etc.... aiya, i also dunno what i mean... but then, life is just so confusing..... a lot of stuff i dun understand... just like what ryan said, a lot of the time, when u dun understand sumthing, just nod ur head and pretend that u understand..... but y? i dun understand y do we have to pretend to be something we're not so that we can gain ppl's attention or liking or friendship... its like, i am who i am, i dun see why i should change just so that i can be friends with someone... if that someone is a true fren, shouldnt he accept me for the way i am? everyone is different... i dun see the pt in trying to make everyone the same...... everything in this world is relative, to some this might be good, to others this might be bad... the world is neither black nor white, the world is different shades of grey.... we are afterall human....... we are not absolute nor will we ever be..............

I dun think im making much sense, so if after reading this, u dun understand, its ok, i doubt i myself fully understand what m ranting abt anyway......

lalalaalalala~~~ Exams are over!!!!(or nearly over)

2006-10-11T07:11:00.000+08:00

YAY!!!! exams are over!!!! lalalalalalala..... i shall happily ignore the fact that theres chinese paper 1 tomorrow and that ny papers ended on monday!!! lalalala~~~~~ lol

This year i think teachers out to kill us sia.... triple science paper set until so hard..... sumore so tricky.... i like kena scammed so many times...... then maths... ARGH.... dun think can beat zk liao =(..... oh well, i tried my best =)....... then chinese paper 2 was um... damn abstract.... hope i managed to crap my way thru..... Then ihc and ihe damn weird............. Its like ihc seq was damn easy, just vomitted out the whole tb info can liao, but then ihc sbq decontextualised.... BUT hard like hell.... then ihe i kena scammed by charles low.... its like thru out the lessons, we kept discussing on differences between gender and sex, and how the social construct of gender resulted in oppression or discrimination of woman.... then exam qn come out..... Due to the gender divide, MAN are becoming more and more conformed to two-dimensional stereotypes, discuss the effect of this on today's society..... Its like, wtf, i didnt even do any research on man -.-" so ended up doing Oedipus Rex. And worst of all, it was also freaking hard.... the qn is, thru close analysis of the text, did Oedipus take responsibility for his actions, and ultimately his fate? ... then its like throughout the whole text, there was only ONE line that Oedipus said that made him take responsibility for his actions... and guess what, THAT ONE line was quoted in the qn..... lmao... so i was smoking my way through.... lalalalalala, then drrag in a lot of crazy analogies..... but amazingly, i managed to crap up 9 pages...... within an hour.... miracle sia

~~~~~~~~~~~ shall ignore all that for a while... at least before i get the results~~~~~~~~~~~~

lalallaallalalalalalalalalalalalalalallala.... must rest, relax and enjoy now....."then tomorrow start mugging for jc liao"(quoted from weizhe)

lol... then yesterday after maths paper 2 went to play lan................. me, cj, and zx(kser!!!!) owned bw, jt and wz....... lalalalalalal......... 姜还是老的辣.... but then cs kena thrashed by cj and co. lalalalalalalallalalalalalalalala............. then bw actually put love.****(her name) as his nick during the game lol..... he lucky wy nvr see lol.... later wy misunderstand....... lalalala... i realised im obessed with las. LOL...

Life eh?

2006-08-29T19:09:00.000+08:00

Lol, today was kinda a bad day for me.... sigh... dunno y suddenly so easy to get pissed.... sorry to all those that i kinda throw temper too....

Sigh, throughout today, i just realised a few sad facts of life. Firstly, ppl always like to criticise ppl even though they themselves are no better. Its like someone who dunno a single **** abt websites suddenly decide to criticise other ppl's webbys. Its like, if u cant do it, why the hell do u think others shld do it. Or someone who always throw his temper around criticising someone for losing his temper only once. Ironic, isnt it? But thats how ppl are.

Secondly, ppl never spare a thought for other ppl one. Its like someone finds it fun to annoy someone else, so he doesnt give a damn how the other person feel, all that matters is that he is having fun. Sad to say, i find that i also become liddat sometimes, but i will change. Its like, ppl dun even show the BASIC respect for others, much less think in other ppl's shoes. all that matters is THEM, THEM, AND THEM.

Thirdly, ppl nowadays are really two-faced la. Its like if u have something he needs, he'll suck up to u, lick ur boots, etc, then once ur useless, he'll just stab u in the back.

Fourthly, ppl nowadays are freaking ungrateful. Its like biting the hand that feeds u. Maybe a helped b, then b suddenly turn around and say a sucks. AND not even a word of thanks. Or its like ur parents, they spend thousands of dollars to feed u, to send u to sch, to let u go out and play, and they spent so much time trying to help u, then u say they have no right to scold u? PLEASE LA, I know sometimes parents are unreasonable, but who can say that they are reasonable all the time? Besides, they only scold u out of love, just like teachers scold us because they want us to improve. Ok, maybe this doesnt apply to all the cases, but thats the general case.

Nobody is perfect, then why do ppl expect others to be perfect?

Life's sad aint it?

All the above was just pure ranting, nothing was meant to be personal, and im sorry if u feel that im attacking u.

Today got back two test results, 13/20 for english, 17/30 for ihe. I can zibei liao la.

Sigh, got to go mug for chem liao, later chem test screw up again.

p.s. no more blogging, no more going out, no more msn, cutting down on smses, is it neccesary to take such drastic exams just for eoy?
p.p.s. Life is sad, but its no use getting upset over it, so cheer up and get on with life

Sabbaticals wk!!!!

2006-08-27T08:46:00.000+08:00

lol.... last sabbaticals of my sec sch life and i went for a course that is basically a repeat of our sec 3 bio work lol....... But quite fun la... fool aroound a lot, then every day end at 1pm.....
Lol, so slack XD.... but after that i got mug!!!!!

Then the trainer justin, was damn gay lol, its like he ask u think of a no. and focus on it, then he can guess it one. Anad its like 99% accuracy..... its like totally bizarre.........

2006-08-22T19:05:00.000+08:00

just realised that my blog is being read by two very interested grps of ppl =)... due to that, i decided to keep this blog clean and pure =)lol.

This week is slack week lol, sabbaticals. Paid 90 dollars to listen to some guy help us revise our sec 3 bio. Almost fell asleep halfway during his talk...... then afternoon went kap lol. again.... then ran into 3 humans and a dog. No pts for guessing who =) Anyway, met kiwi on the way. Then suddenly he told me its minyang's birthday today. Then i kena stunned -.-". Anyway, didnt run into minyang, but HAPPY BIRTHDAY to minyang all the same.

thats all for now,cya

2006-08-13T18:57:00.000+08:00

lol... today went for a VERY productive moblog meeting... was stoning in ntuc for half an hour before the rest arrived.... then its like yingjie call me:
yj: where r u?
me: inside ntuc
yj: k
me: i go out and find u all k? give me two mins
yj: bb

~2 mins later~

me: where r u?
yj: where r U?
me: outside ntuc
yj: DOTS, we went inside ntuc to find u -.-"

then we went kfc and drank a cup of coke while yingjie briefed us (me and benard)... then i called the other member, then he was like huh? todaay got meeting!!?! the briefing took a total of 10 mins!!! WOW!!!!

then we went and play lan... fighting 1v2 against yingjie and benard.... quite fun la.... then we went to take the lrt and took a lot of spastic photos =)....

sian....

2006-08-12T21:07:00.000+08:00

great.... the **** cbox website kena screwed up and i cant log in, so have to change to a new cbox -.-" Anyway, to all the jokers who like to play with my cbox, i can tell u tat it takes me only 2 mins to delete and ban ur ip, while it takes u like 10 mins? to type out the whole thing... so do both of us a favour and dun waste ur time =)

ok... shall start blogging abt wed first....
Wed i went to IMM to shop for presents for rach and for teacher's day... ya, and then bought something for her also =) then after that reach home.... pia hw.... then watch ndp and stone =)

Thurs even more fun..... pia hw, pia projects day, pia smrp research paper =)

Then friday was ok la... afternoon got projects day judging, think we kena screwed la, teocm was shooting questions at us, one after another.... then i kena stunned......... then go kap and wait for rachel.... wait wait wait... then in the end got to leave before rachel come, cause got attachment....

then rush to nus high for ydsp attachment =) go then stone for 2 hrs listen to professor crap abt hydrostatic pressure... then later go try using water level to measure height of ground.... so need ppl to lay out grid system, so in the end, us 4 hc guys bo liao, so go lay the grid... JI FUN!!!!

then after ydsp, rush back to kap, but rach's bday party over liao -.-" so basically, i was at kap before her b day party, and after her b day party -.-" lmao....

lol, then today morning go do service learning project.... then the students took like 2 WHOLE hours to solve FOUR problems -,-" what a MIRACLE!!!!

8 days alrdy.......... and counting.... cannot forget....

national day....

2006-08-08T17:30:00.000+08:00

ya.... today national day eve!!!! then sec 4 had class performances..... our class scored 19/30 la, but quite good considering that we only started rehearsing like 1 hour before the actual thing....

later went beauty world mac with br,hj, zk and the rest.... lol... played the five word game, quite lame la...... then we were swinging boey around, to help him grow taller =)

lol, dunno y im posting this except to waste time before conquering my mountain of hw -.-"

5 days and counting......

2006-08-07T19:27:00.000+08:00

lol..... went to kap today with br, hj, zk, bw and jr...... quite sian lol.... play too much truth and dare alrdy -.-"....... Then br and hj ate a fry (singular form of fries) together.... ya, leave u ppl to imagine what happened XD.... then just went to read br and hj's blog.... very sweet lol =)

Ya, got a new mp3 player yesterday =).... happy =)....

On a side note, to my class ppl, i dun care whatever u guys niao me abt.... but dun ever niao her.... its like wtf la, i go ask abt the paper, then u guys not happy and niao her, WERENT U GUYS ALSO ASKING ABT THE PAPER? so why the hell do u want to niao her? bu shuang for what?

2006-08-04T20:13:00.000+08:00

just changed my skin.... dun like it very much, but think its better than the old one =)

Just came back from kfc.... today quite fun la... Mugged a bit, then play truth or dare.... then she came... ya, kinda awkard la, really want to talk to her, but dunno how to express myself, so ended up not saying anything =(.....

But at least i know for sure that my feelings are real, maybe one day she'll change her mind... must remain optimistic =)

Tomorrow going to fuhua to do sl.... think will be quite fun la.... but then my schedule for the weekend is totally screwed up.... but i can pull thru =)

lol, dunno why suddenly feel so cheerful =), hope this feeling stays on for the weekend lol.....
Think it wont la... but must look on the bright side of life =)....

"Believing u can can achieve miracles" =)

2006-08-02T18:40:00.000+08:00

sian... ... Im suppose to be pia-ing my intertext essay now... but dunno what to write, totally stumped at the first qn... so decided to blog again lol....

Today was quite ok la.... chinese test 36/50, going by tansc standards shld be acceptable la.... then after that we had chinese test... think i screwed it up... was crapping my whole essay out...

Actually wanted to go out with br and the rest, but looking at the amt of owrk i have, decided against it lol, sorry br....

I MISS XYXY!!!!! ok, sorry, that was very william.....

Must pia, but somehow cant get into the mood..... its like i look at the essay qn... then i go so sian.....

Sigh.... life is sad, take a break, have a kit-kat (quoted from the slutty leefy)....

2006-08-01T17:49:00.000+08:00

sigh.... today was a bad day....

last night just received a very unhappy sms, but i promised that i wont feel down....

Guess some promises are just way too hard to keep.... couldnt keep her out of my mind for the whole of today.... sorry for those ppl who suffered when i flared up.... really sorry.....

I really dunno what i shld do, couldnt even pay attention during ihe lesson, which is usually the most interesting lesson.... i even subconsiously wrote 2M2 on my paper.... then almost broke down...... but luckily i didnt.... after all, i did promise.....

then got back ihc results, 13/20, which was like the second lowest in the class, then see the class msg, 1.5, then feel even more sad.......

To make things worse, just read emb that this friday our sch soccer team play against ri, then we ARE SO FORTUNATE as to get excused from ep3 so as to watch them play soccer...... WTF la.... damn pissed lol, no huagang, then instead have to sit under hot sun for 4 hours watching 22 guys running after one stupid ball..... No idea what the sch admin is thinking......

sigh....,. on a happier note, at least mugging session on monday was fun.....

P.S. to her, if u are reading this blog, which i doubt so, i want to tell u i'll wait.... day after day, until u change ur mind...

overflow of emotions....

2006-07-28T21:17:00.000+08:00

just came back from kap..... dunno why, today felt kinda sad, it feels weird, our last day in huagang but we couldnt let go..... We had very fun activties (not pro-ed) in huagang, but must first whine abt today....

Firstly, only got like 2 hours sleep last night, pia webreport until 1 am, then revise ihc....

First lesson, ihe.... then we were discussing theory after theory until i even forgot the definition of diplomacy.... then second lesson maths, i became even more brain dead..... then ihc... i look at the test paper... then kenna stunned for 10 secs, dunno what to do lol.... then in the end crapped like hell.... write until wrist abt to break... then we had a 20 min recess.... then english lesson, ESSAY writing.... like my hand hor..... then later physics still ok, then last lesson chinese, SURPRISE TEST!!!! then still got summary and one long essay like question... really not write until hand no strength liao....

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Then after huagang went kap and crap a while, then came back and browse thru a lot of fren's blogs... ya then when i read cm's blog, realised i'm somewhat in the same emotional state as her lol..... dj dun kill me for that, but its true.... i really dunno what im going to do without huagang, maybe the reason im getting myself involved in so many other things is not my passion, but trying to escape the pain of leaving huagang.... i will really miss the days in huagang, where we move and make props together, get together to crap, laugh at each other, practise together.... guess my life in huagang is really over.... but somehow, i really cant let go.... i try to smile, but i really miss huagang.... Until today, i never realised huagang meant so much to me.... without huagang, i dunno what to look forward to to carry me thru the week..... i thought i am alrdy over the post production blues, but today, when i went back to the xyxy blog, suddenly felt like crying, and just realised, thru out this two weeks, i keep getting reminded of xyxy, even got once almost cried in class... Really cant let go.... no matter how much i want to.... suddenly reminded of zhou chuan xiong's huang hun........

Still remember sec 1 in huagang, went to act a skit at mgs, then since we were suppose to be 尿急.... then in the end all the actors went to water cooler at mgs and bottle down at least a bottle of water.... i bottled two bottles lol, then got one guy, forgot who, damn meng, bottle 3.5 bottles..... But the prob is during the skit no feeling, then on the bus, suddenly all the actors 尿急... not ironic at all, but overall did quite well la.....

Then in sec 2, we had lqq..... lqq was the first major production im involved in.... it was damn fun... everyday after school, we all rush to drama center immediately to rehearse and do work together..... i guess it was lqq that shaped the current batch of sec 4s, we became bonded after lqq.... ya, lqq was the first time that i cried in front of so many ppl, until now still rmb everyone..... still rmb in post production blues that time, everyday after school, we go straight to drama center, stone for 5 mins, then realise it was alrdy over....

Then in sec 3, we had because of you.... i guess because of you was quite screwed, dragged on very long, and then certain grp of ppl ap la.... but still it was fun and at least we did it lol.....

shall blog abt xyxy next time... now need to go sleep and prepare for a chaotic day tomolo......

anyway, next monday mass gathering at kap for xyxy peeps.... more ppl come along leh... more fun.....

continuation from last post....

2006-07-25T17:53:00.000+08:00

k, now i shall continue my thanks =),

Kenyang: lol, hey dao zang, good job with all ur dao ju.... it must have been tough for you! you really did very well =) I'm sure song yi learnt a lot from you.... also, dun forget abt dao niang hor, even in the midst of all ur stuff, must find time for her =).....

Zheng yan: hey, sorry abt mixing u up with another gurl lol.... anyway, thx for all ur jia you's and handshakes on 1507 =)..... next time we meet must teach me how to spin the light stick lol.....

Jasmine: yo, dao niang, it must have been hard doing all the lights..... jiayou kz? But next time must control ur electric shocks lol.... just as yang says, lights ppl have the heaviest responsibilities =) gd job!!!!

Bo rui: yo, ft! lol, congrats on finding ur prefect match =) also, thx for replacing me in my role...... lol, u may always be joking, but im sure u put in a lot of hard work for this performance =).... thx for everything =)... but cannot spend too much time with hj and dao the rest of us hor........ o ya, and u must thank me for making u and hj meet for the first time lol =)

Hui Jun: hey, er sao, must be nice to br hor.... dun bully him hor.... also must be nicer to ur son lol.... cannot always threaten him with a knife and make him balance books on his head..... lol, anyway, it has been great working with you and i enjoy the times we all spent at kap lol..... also kinda envious of you and br lol... so sweet.....

Zheng hang: lol, maths pro.... must work hard on ur sit and reach.... lol, anyway, gd job on ur dbl roles..... so pro lol, dbl roles and scriptwriter =).... anyway, its been fun washing ur hair lol......

Mo xiang: hey, momo, great job on stage lol.... its been great working on stage.... thx for helping with props even through u were a main actor..... you and boey and zhi hao totally rocked the stage...... work hard for next yr!!!!

Jia rern: yo, its been fun fooling around in the back stage with you lol..... u made all the waiting times pass so fast.... lol, ur my favourite niece lol.... o wait, i only have 1 niece so far XD.... lol, u very popular... got at least 2 ppl chasing after u, just like b_ _ t_ _ _ lol

think thats all, sorry if i miss out anyone lol..... o ya, must explain why i keep throwing water bombs at hj during qing gong yan.... lol... actually only throw twice on purpose lol..... first time i forgot why i throw at hj lol.... then the second time is cause she was standing cornered under the terraces, such a easy target lol, so must see whether br will ying xiong jiu mei lol.... then third time is for revenge lol, cause br pour water down on me..... anyway, cannot blame me for that la.... to kope jason boey's explanation :" cause she has a attractive personality, so somehow all my water bombs attracted to her...." lol, of cos the her in jason boey's statment refers to someone else lol.....

now i shall continue to sunday.......Sunday me, zx, gen and anni went library to teach rubik's cube lol.... it was so scary!!!! i was teaching all sorts of ppl lol... all in all, it was quite ok la.... must especially thank zx, gen and anni for helping out lol......

then monday, I went to be lightbulb and accompany br and hj to kap.... then later jason boey came, then yw came.... then we were playing truth or dare.... actually we were suppose to mug... but in the end, i only finish like half a ying yong wen, then yw only finish one qn for her chem ws, somemore is guess one!!!! but truth or dare quite fun la, boey was thinking of all the crazy dares cause b_ _ t_ _ _ not around lol..... nvm, i shall have my revenge next time lol....

Need to focus on my studies!!!!!!!!!!

2006-07-24T18:01:00.000+08:00

kz.... after this post i will start mugging like there is no tomorrow!!!!

but first, i shall blog abt friday to today....... =)

Friday was HUAGANG!!!! so fun.... weilong came back.... then minyang suddenly tell me i have to talk abt my experience as make up grp leader.... then i was like wtf, i only like went shopping for materials twice, conducted 4 make up lessons, and did a full trial and the make up on the actual day... meh, the days that i really took the role as huazhuang leader can be counted on two hands -.-".... then worst of all, yang was around, so i cannot say anything niao or what.... then after we finish speaking, yang stabbed the whole makeup grp lol.... he was like "props ppl need to be damn agile, costumes ppl must be very careful, sounds ppl need to be very creative, lights ppl need to be very responsible.." THEN HE DAO MAKE UP.... then br was laughing like hell.... then yang saw me, so he said "make up ppl also need to be very careful la.... " LOL.....

Then after huagang, we went to watch rv's performance. Ok, firstly, the performance was in lt. Secondly, the teacher reminded me of kelvin cheng. Thirdly, the students were forced to watch the play. Fourthly, the ticket was sold at 2 dollars. Fifthly, there was no proper lightning or backstage. Draw your own conclusion from the above facts lol......

then after the performance, we went to kap for dinner..... then dj kena niao by br and hj lol..... its like:
dj: huh, u two together ah? I suddenly feel i very lag....
br: dun worry, you have always been very lag.....
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dj: I'm sorry but i really didnt know abt the two of you.....
hj: lol, its ok, we forgive u...
dj:... ....

lol, then on sat was qing gong yan... so in the morning, i was rushing around IMM to buy presents and cards..... cause my schedule for the past few days a bit free..... ya, during qing gong yan felt kinda sad la, cause its like four years in huagang and it all ends now.... also take this chance to thank a few ppl la.

Yinghan: first must apologise for not getting you any presents... cause i wanted to make a kadileoscope for all the SMs, ASMs and make up grp members.... but then end up i not enuf kitchen rolls lol.... but anyway, must thank you for everything you've done la, its been great working with you.... You've been a great fren and i wont forget u....

Augustin: also must apologise for not getting u present, cause same reason as yh.... anyway, you've been a nice junior.... great job as ASM, I'm proud of you XD.... I think you'll be a even better vice chair than yh XD.... although yh is also a very good vice chair la....

Felicia: Hey, its been great working with you... actually, when i found out u were sec 2, i almost couldnt believe it lol, u seemed so mature and responsible... u did a great job, and according to my frens. for the afternoon show the screw-ups werent that obvious la, so u really deserve a pat on the back =)....

Ewe: Its really been great working with you... i think we both grown a lot since the start lol.... i still rmb the first wu mei meeting, then we were like, what does make up have to discuss lol.... you been a really great help and i'm honoured to know u XD.... Also must thank you for all the effort you've put in, really apprieciate how committed you are......

Jason Boey: yo, future make up leader.... dun be so stressed XD.... you were great on stage.... YOU ROCKED!!!... and i must say, you are my favourite junior among the sec 3s =), although i also like the others a lot... also, thanks for coming over to help with make up even though you were one of the main actors......must be more pro-active next yr k? must help out with props like me =).... then also must woo my future daugther-in-law XD... dun let such a golden opportunity slip by... later she kena coped by s_ _ j_ _.... lol, must jiayou!!!!

Xiu Hui: hey, thx for everything that you've done... ya, thx for coming down during the june hols despite your busy schedule..... must work hard for next yr's porduction k?

Min Hua: lol, you r the cutest junior i have even seen =), two yrs down the road must become my grandson k? anyway, its been great working with you and thx for been so enthu and helpful.... ya, also must especially thank you for slogging the make up boxes back to boarding sch and then back to ny..... Work hard hor, must treasure your time in huagang =).....

Jason Lim: Hey, you've been a great junior and dun be jealous that i like boey more lol.... after all, the two of you share the same name XD..... ya, thx for hanging out with us.... must work hard hor and find me a daughter-in-law XD...... gd luck for next yr!

Everyone who went to kap with us: hey guys and girls, its been great hanging out with all of you, and i will never forget the days we spent together at kap.... i alrdy miss playing truth or dare, slacking and laming there until like 10pm.....

Everyone involved in the productiong: Thx for working so hard for this production... especially thx to those who put in so much effort, like dj, cm, etc. A production would never be a success unless everyone works together.... so thx for everything....

lol, i said a few but ended up thanking so many ppl XD.... must stop typing liao, or else later no time to study! think i blog abt today tomorrow... cya

lol...... 10 gold medals in one day.....

2006-07-20T17:45:00.000+08:00

lol... today announcements damn fun... gym, judo, track and air rifle got 10 gold medals altogether... so we got half day at 11.20..... but then borui wants to wait for er sao to go kap... and ny only release at 2pm..... so in the end i go home lol.....

then i read anglc's post.... and i missed gold for smo by only 3 MARKS!!!! so sad..... it looks as if im destined to miss what im aiming for by a narrow margin lol.......

lol... read br and hj's msgs today... damn mushy!!!!!...... lol

need to prepare for my workshop on sunday, come down to ang mo kio library to support me this sunday at 2pm XD!!!!!

lol... sane day....

2006-07-19T18:15:00.000+08:00

lol... today was kinda screwed up...... we had early dismissal.... so we went to fuhua at 12..... then the security guard said now we letting the students out, so cannot let strangers in.... so we went to library and stone until around 2pm... then we go back to fuhua.... then the guard said Mrs Mary Lim is hosting the superintendent now... can u come back tomorrow?

So in the end i took bus back to kap and went to eat with er ge and er sao..... its feels weird lol... i take the bus pass my house two times then nvr alight... i think im going crazy XD....

Then er ge and er sao damn mushy lol... but must forgive them la... they so in love with each other.... then its like er sao say he love er ge 10 out of 10.... omg... er ge so lucky XD i envy him and er sao lol....

sian leh... 4 tests next wk and i havent even started mugging for any of them... i think im dead.....

feeling very zibei....

2006-07-18T20:04:00.000+08:00

ok.... i just realised why we didnt qualify for the finals of the eureka quiz.... Me and junjie were doing the first qn on physics. HOWEVER, instead of ansing why the direction of the vechicle changes when the clips are shifted.... we ansed why the vechicle moves... thats 7 marks down the drain....

THAT 7 MARKS WOULD HAVE MADE THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN US GETTING FIFTH AND QUALIFYING FOR FINALS IN SECOND POSITION.

so sad lol... it was like we missed the finals by 0.5 marks.... then we look at the final round qns... all so freaking easy..... wahlao.... its like if me and yingjie and junjie went down, we would literally pwn them... instead, we were zi-bei-ing in the audience seats.

Then the audience round was a joke........ all the qns were so freaking easy..... its like we couldnt even be bothered to think... then in the end... mr LAN decided to show off... the qn asked "Who proved Ferma's Last Theorem?" then yingjie went down and went "blah blah blah proved it in 1997 using blah blah blah method...." then everyone was like.... ..... stunned.

Then we looked at the prize they give yingjie for ansing the qn.... they didnt even bother to remove the price tag... they gave a disc worth 0.95 dollars....

sigh.... feeling so zibei now.....

On the other hand, must congrat my da ge and er ge for finding their perfect matches.....

First Post

2006-07-16T08:58:00.000+08:00

hey.... first post for this blog..... suddenly feel like blogging after reading every1's blog lol.... anyway

1507 is over... i guess this date means a lot to all of us sec 4s.... its the last time we will ever move props together.. its the last time we will do the curtain call.... i didnt know whether to laugh or to cry.... the performance was a success, but i couldnt help but shed those tears.... this day marks the end of our days in huagang

I still rmb the reason why i choose huagang..... during the orientation.... i sensed the strong bonding that our seniors had.... they joked with each other, they laughed with each other, they were like one big family...... I rmb the first time i stepped into huagang.... the seniors really seemed very bonded together....

Then in sec 2, we took part in the lqq drama.... it was amazing..... we had rehearsals everyday starting from 2 weeks before the play.... during this time, we ate together, we played together, we joked together.... and that made us so bonded.... at the end of lqq, we all cried.... cause we would miss all the times we spent together.....

i'll really miss the times we spent together..... .....

P.S. on a lighter note, da ge and da sao going on their honeymoon today